Tuesday, August 31, 2004

many nights we've prayed,
with no proof anyone could hear
in our hearts a hopeful song
we barely understood

now we are not afraid
though we know there is much to fear
we were moving mountains
long before we knew we could

there can be miracles
when you believe
though hope is frail
it's hard to kill
there can be miracles
when you believe
when you believe
somehow you will
you will when you believe

in this time of fear
when prayer so often proves in vain
hope seems like the summer birds
too swiftly flown away
now i'm standing here
with heart so full i can't explain
seeking faith and speaking words
i never thought i'll say


there can be miracles
when you believe
though hope is frail
it's hard to kill
there can be miracles
when you believe
when you believe
somehow you will
you will when you believe


you will when you believe




my falling ; 4:47 PM

clarissa came over today
:)))
watched the others
she din seem very freaked out really
ahaha
but nvm

jia wanted to join us at first
until she realised she were watchin THE OTHERS
which i have to admit
after watching it 3 times already
it doesn't get that scary anymore
this is the 4th time
i rmbr my first time
it was CRAZY
was clutching the cushion
and praying my veins won't burst from the pressure or wadeva
but heck
i made it through
ahaha

teachers' day celebration today was..
nice at first
with all the laughter and wad have you
until, the last bit
it got really boring
and was nearly asleep
yeah

cna't believe mrs tian won the wannabe award
MRS TIAN?!
good lord
:/

anyhow
did mr tay's card in tiong's class
was...
rushed
:/

had some sort of technical/ power failure
but strangely, mep room din have
so went down with clarissa to enjoy aircon
mr wong was entertaining us
ahaha
:))

then...
din have geog lesson
so stayed down at the mep room watching the black adder
it's DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN funny
ahahahahahaha
not to mention super lame as well

then..
went back to class at one cos the sec fours were having practical exam
played abit of pass the ball with jinan until
this big klutz typing here knocked down the covering of the light
so we stopped
:/

anyhow
the term's almost over?
and i think i'm gna REALLY miss sitting next to jieying
sure she's a prat at times
but she's very nice really
:/
and i like my sitting position!
:/
and (god, i CANNOT believe i'm saying this) i'm gna miss jinan)
ok
so they all are in the same class as me
but even so!
hiax..
praying i can sit next to the window next term
though i personally really REALLY doubt it
:/

ermmmmm...
sparring tml at marist
half the team's not going
:/
don really wna go then..
but chew's going..
so if let's say i don go
then i'll have to tell chew
and she wont go then.
tiong is going..
I THINK
but if me and chew don go
she also wont go
(i think)
think carolynn's going.
dania and yunnie also going..
hmmmm
3 st nicks people?
ERRRRR

hiax...
we'll see
have to tell chew soon though
hmmmmmm
:/

pris
GO LA!
pretty pretty please?!??!?
plsplspls?
:)))))
you can study after the games!
yes?
:)))






my falling ; 4:27 PM

Sunday, August 29, 2004

-scowls
just when i'm in a bad mood
you purposely come and irritate me
screw you

what the f___ is wrong with you?
you take pleasure at my displeasure is it?
can't you find something better to do?!
something productive perhaps?
something less IRRITATING
f___ you
f___ you so bad






my falling ; 9:45 PM

just back from the bbq thingy
had a shower first la

hmmmm...
was at grande vista
i think that's how you spell it
was nice la
couldnt swim though
cos of..
a certain reason.
-cough cough

am SO super full now
swear i'm gna grow fat.
:/
damn
all those sit ups for nothing
:/

hurr
i'm kinda tired.
but don feel like sleeping
i'm on one side
and the world's on the other
everything is negative at the moment..
so yah
:/

everyone
stay far far away from me
:/





my falling ; 9:30 PM

YES!
I FINALLY GOT MAROON 5'S SONGS ABOUT JANE!
ahaha
so darn nice
been listening to it over and over agn
(:

anyhow
I'M GOING TO SEE NIC AGAIN!
-screams and runs around the room
YESYESYESYESYESYES!
-stares at ash
NANNYPOOPOO!
ahaha
you're going to japan
while i get to stay in NIC'S house
ahaha
jealous?
(:

yupyup
I AM HAPPY!
((((:

hmmmmm
am going to have to miss abit of trng
but nvm
ash was calling me a moron for choosing badminton over going australia
well
i'm calling her a moron for calling me a moron
cos it takes one to know one
-GLARES HARD
:/

anyhow
going for some bbq thingy later
hmmmm
not in the mood really
but wad the heck
ltr!



my falling ; 3:07 PM

Friday, August 27, 2004

i'm satisfied. VERY satisfied with today
ahahaha

had maths test today
din have enough time to do the last question
:/
just anyhow draw my graph la
HURR!
oh well

after that
met tiong at her class
was helping her do her geog assignment
ahaha
was so stupid
julia came back today
yup
i went to pris's class
and lost tiong
then waited so long for pris
got fed up and went to the family lounge
saw swim shady
mark chay (?) cute meh?
hurr

anyhow
found tiong with jiaxin in the canteen
had lunch
and went to the hall
found yannyee there
chew came later

pris and jean came WAY later
and we were debating where to go
decided on j8 in the end
went there
got pretzels!
ahaha
NICE!
got the choc and mint one
pris and jean got the sour cream one
chew was super broke so she got one pathatic caramel dip?
for 80 cents
wad crap?
AHAHAHAHA

then
went to the food court and sat there and talk
talk for quite some time
i got cheng tng and jean got chendol
ahaha
we had alot of fun eating the chendol
ahaha
then..
walked around
went popular
saw a SUPER cute spongebob survival book
damn funny

then.
went to take neoprints
DAMN NICE!
ahaha
was the most satisfied with the neoprints!
ahaha
yannyee said she coming up to meet us
talk neoprint tgt
then end up wad la?!
she still in amk
so took without her

me jean pris and chew did most of the designing
was NICE!
ahaha
we were so retarded?
ahahaha
laughed so much
i liked the "eh" and the "smile la!" one best!
ahaha
why?
cos i decorated them wad!
AHAHAHA

we took twice
the first time was so stupid
cos we din really know how to use it
then 2nd time more experienced
ahaha
got 6 shots,
jean end up decorating ONE?!
i did the other 5 with pris
ahaha

can tell which one is i do one and which one is jean do one
ahaha
cos mine is quite simple
mainly just words
jean floods the whole picture with things la!
ahaha
quite cute really
ahaha

then...
left at around 645
yup

ahaha
i REALLY like our neoprints!
ahaha

ALL HAIL THE 5 OF US!!
nessa`chew`pris`jean`tiong



my falling ; 8:16 PM

Thursday, August 26, 2004

jinan
YOU DO LOVE ME LOR!
ahahahahaha
and sorry la
typo cannot is it?
i'm not perfect you see!
-quotes mr foo
there's perfection in imperfection
ahaha
my quotes blog shld be up soon
:)))
yesyes
i'm glad you're sitting behind me
got someone to bully!
ahaha
jieying is so emotionless
no fun one lor!
hurr!
-glares
anyhow
you SO wack me everytime can!
and it's not unique
it's irritating really
USE PROPER ENGLISH MY DEAR GIRL!
hurr!
your english teacher must be so ashamed of you!
wait...
isnt that tyt?
AHAHAHA
tyt is ashamed of you!
arent you ashamed of yourself then?
-smirks
:)




my falling ; 8:39 PM

this is absolutely RIDICULOUS!
i mean
my MEP test paper
WAD THE HECK?!
9 upon 20
9! nine! NINE!!!
rahh!
stupid mr wong REFUSES to gimme the last mark
:/
hurr!
i REALLY shldn't have taken mep
home econs sounds SO fun
:/

got back bio paper today
hurrr
i passed
that's all everybody has to know
:/

am considering taking pure physics and chem as my science subjects next year
i CANNOT get into triple science liao la
ash wants to take history
but my mom, dania and yannyee say take geog better
but if i take geog..
don think i'll get to be the same class as ash?
:/
hiax
oh well
that stupid woman wants to be a whatchamacallit
shit..
how do you spell it?
the person who digs up old OLD stuff one..
archi-something i think
:/
short term memory

anyhow
trng today was..
interesting
ahaha
-stares at snbt
the physical part was really quite amusing?
ahaha
though was super tiring
ahaha
-looks at jean
WE ARE GOOD!
:))))
ahahaha

ooo!
hilary duff's fly is SUPER nice!
addicted already la!
in a moment, everything can change. find the wind on your shoulders
FLY, OPEN THE PART OF YOU THAT WANTS TO HIDE AWAY



gimme the wings i need. let me go. free, i'll soar above the mountains, never looking back again. away i fly



my falling ; 8:26 PM

Wednesday, August 25, 2004

just for your information

a typical converstation between me and jinan

me
jinan, i know you love me lor

jiana
ya right. you then love me more lor

me
pls la, don't try to deny liao la
you so obviously LOVE ME!

jinan
IDIOT ( lengthens the "eee" part)

me
it's idiot (prounces it properly)
not eeeediot

jinna
-wacks me somewhere






my falling ; 10:37 PM

nessa
i'm INVADING as usual!
darn bored la
oh i forgot to call you when i reached home
just realised
sorry!
iloveyou!



my falling ; 10:36 PM

Monday, August 23, 2004

wednesday ; 23082004
had piano exam today
yup!
screwed several things
scales, sight reading and aural
basically everything cept pieces

scales was the worst
he (the examiner) asked for A flat minor harmonic
and i was racking my brains
WAD THE HECK IS A FLAT MINOR HARMONIC?!
then in the end he said
"or G sharp minor if you prefer"
so i spend 10 seconds trying to figure wad the heck was A flat minor for nothing
and i don even think it shld be called A flat minor
cos A flat minor's leading note is G
whereas in my scales book
it clearly shows F as the leading note
humph
stupid examiner
but he was super nice la
made me feel so relaxed
wasnt so tensed after that

aural was crap cept for the cadence part
sight reading
needless to say
was UTTER CRAP
pieces went pretty well though
:))

thursday ; 24082004
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JEANTOHTINGYI
yes!
you're 13!!
woah!
so old
ahaha

trng today was torture
yup
think gong jiao lian was in a particulary nasty mood
the ban dun thing was damn painful la!
humph
wadeva
it's over!
:))

today ; 25082004
woke up to a terrible pain in my knee
walked around my room trying to get rid of it
eventually it went away
jia din go school today cos she had piano
so i had to go school myself
met sharon on the way
:))

started on digital fortress
NICE!
i like it
finished deception point already
na and jinan are on the waiting list for angels and demons
which is currently with ashgoruomin
she had BETTER not spoil my book in anyway
or i'll kill her, cut her up and feed her to the lions
:/

pris bee tiong came my house today
had fun!
was suppose to study
but i couldn't
just HAD to finish digital fortress la
bee and pris were so amazed at my reading speed
was thinking they'll probably faint at ash's
ahahaha

pris stayed for dinner
tiong and bee left at around 6 plus
-stares at them
wonder what tiong's lauging and screaming did to ____
AHAHAHAHAHAHA

snbt sec 2s
RED SHIRT TML!
this is pointless
cos i know chew knows
and tiong knows too..
so carolynn?
errrrr...
we'll just leave it there
:)





my falling ; 8:42 PM

Saturday, August 21, 2004

AHAHAHA
i just LOVE 2 weeks notice
that show is so darn funny!
:))

anyhow
mom din allow me to go for trng today
got really upset
din talk to her at all for the WHOLE day
:/
but honestly
wad the heck is wrong with her?!
sheesh

my bro's girlfren got panasonic d-snap
or at least that's what i think it's called
DAMN NICE!
i want
-stares at bro
yeah
like you'll EVER get it for me anyway
:/

anyhow
piano exam on monday
-runs around screaming her head off and bangs head on wall 346141824353724134531879561 times

yes
i'm panicking
not to mention
practising like mad
oh well
it's only 2 days away
after that
i'm not touching the piano for 2 whole weeks
:)

guestbook replies

nic
thank you dear!
ahaha
i will DEFINATELY pass with flying colours this time
ahaha
love you dear!

jinan
YOU LOVE ME ENOUGH TO SIGN MY GUESTBOOK!
ahahaha
you do la you do!
you love me enough to gimme seaweed chicken
and ya la
finefine
i love you too!
ahaha
:))
say i'm nice!




my falling ; 11:01 PM

jinan loves me!!



my falling ; 9:30 AM

Friday, August 20, 2004

friday
hmmmmmm.....
was thinking of today's interesting bio lesson
wait
did i say interesting?
i meant.
dare-not-look-at-my-notes-interesting
wait...
that's not interesting..
nvm
i never make sense

today's bio lesson was about a more..
sensitive subject
-looks at faithians
erhem
no comment

anyhow
piano today was spend amusing my piano teacher's time while she tried to figure out a new time for me
:/
damn
i dno whether to be glad or not about the badminton trng changes
cos it's like
(with effect from after the sept hols)
trng will be on mondays,wednesdays and fridays
which is technically good
cos sat will have no more trng
and my mom doesnt like me having trng on sat
so that REALLY makes life esier for me
but it also means that i have to change my piano day
which is NOT good
cos i don like to meddle with my piano timing and day and etc.
poor teacher
has to switch so many people just to accomadate (?) me
:/
SORRY!
but it aint really my fault right?
screw the primary badminton section!
:/

anyhow
piano lesson
i am SO gna die for aural test on monday?
AHHHHHH
oh heck
my sing the lower part thing was never good anyway
not to mention my tap the rythm thing really sucks too
but i HAVE to get distinction
cos if i do
my mom say she'll get me MUSCLE POWER 88!!!
YESYESYESYESYESYESYES!
am gna go on another CRAZY practice frenzy

oh yes
jia
PEPPER?!?!?!?!
then i shall name mine SALT!
ahahahahahahahaha

hmmmm
spot's owner claimed her already!
:(
oh man
she was CUTE!
ahaha
i like her spot

pris
one day i'll invade one day
make me feel like the norweyan lord in macbeth
AHAHA

today
ooo!
i keep forgetting to type this down
CLARISSA AND I ARE LAME!
cos we were writing letters to each other
and she dno for wad reason
started using SUPER flowery language
and shakespearen old english
dno what
"wither will thee be home. father is ailing and mother has been pining for thee"
and then i replied in super lan english
like
"aiyo, i actually very wanting to going home one, but stoopid ship go sink itself so now stuck in some ulufied i-land in middle of big big water" etc.
and now it's like we're sisters or something
and i work in the court of duncan and our parents have died in the war
and the whole thing is crap cos we borrowed bits from macbeth
i have no idea wad the heck i just said
but nvm
ignore

anyhow.
trng later.
mom isn't too happy about it.
she doesnt want me to go
i don't care
I AM GOING TRNG AND THAT'S FINAL!
come to think of it.
badminton is practically 1/2 my life?
hmmmmmmm
interesting no?
considering the fact that i really wanted to quit this year.
funny how people change so fast
:/

anyhow.
i'm feeling sleepy now.
stupid cos i woke up at around 9?
that was 30 mins ago.
:/
hurr
think i shall pop myself back into bed.
later!
:))





my falling ; 10:13 PM

clarissa is EATING MY CHOCOLATE!
how dare you!!!!

ahaha
ok
wadeva
anyhow, she's at my house
and we drank campbell soup for lunch
:)))
mushroom and seafood flavour

anyhow
havent been online since 36459084265372309442363 years
:/
been really busy with tests and upcoming piano exam
:/
monday's my exam day!!!!
:/
I DON WNA FAIL!
been on some crazy piano practise frenzy
:(
oh well

monday; 16 aug
went j8 with claree again.
ahaha
i tell you ah
the guys at her moe lc are like
EYESORE
nearly wanted to use her newly bought eyedrops
whao.
i tell you...
can faint one lor
-shakes head
tsktsk
i have decided how to make the world a better place
to be a PLASTIC SURGEON
so i can help improve the looks of those people
hiax..
my job, a noble one.
:)


wednesday; 18 aug
went j8 with pris to get wallet
FINALLY GOT IT!
it's nice!!!
damn damn nice

pris
i shall invade your territory one day
beware.
-looks sinister







my falling ; 4:14 PM

Monday, August 16, 2004

nessa.pris invades! (:



my falling ; 10:05 PM

Sunday, August 15, 2004

[ x ] Spell your first name backwards - vanessa`assenav
[ x ] Where do you live - Singapore
Describe Your
[ x ] Wallet - black. billabong
[ x ] Hairbrush - green
[ x ] Toothbrush - orange
[ x ] Jewelry worn daily - i don't wear jewelry daily
[ x ] Pillow cover - pink with flowers on them
[ x ] Blanket - same as above
[ x ] Coffee cup - one from australia
[ x ] Sunglasses -don't wear sunglasses
[ x ] Shoes - i have got ALOT of shoes
[ x ] Favorite top - mostly tees
[ x ] Cologne/Perfume - don't use them
[ x ] CD in stereo right now - sugarbabes three
[ x ] Tattoos - None
[ x ] Piercings - ears
[ x ] What you are wearing now - clothes?
[ x ] Hair - dark brown
[ x ] Makeup - lip gloss?
WHO or WHAT (was/is/are)
[ x ] In my mouth - my tongue?
[ x ] In my head - my brain?
[ x ] you Wishing - go see my wishlist
[ x ] After this - go mugglenet
[ x ] you Eating - not eating anything!
[ x ] Person you wish you could see right now - alot of people. nic most of all
[ x ] Is next to you - air?
[ x ] Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming month - nothing really
[ x ] The last thing you ate - a pear
[ x ] Something that you are deathly afraid of -LIZARDS!
[ x ] Do you like candles - love them
[ x ] Do you like incense - no. not at all
[ x ] Do you believe in love - sometimes i don't
[ x ] Do you believe in Heaven - yea
[ x ] Do you believe in forgiveness - yup.
[ x ] Do you believe in God - yes
[ x ] What do you want done with your body when you die - i don't really care.
[ x ] Who is your worst enemy - someone
[ x ] If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be - probably a dog.
[ x ] What is the latest you've ever stayed up - very late.
[ x ] Ever been to Belgium? - random quesiton? nope
[ x ] Can you eat with chopsticks - i shld like to think so.
[ x ] What are 5 cities you wouldn't mind relocating to - sdyney` perth`paris`venice`somewhere in canada
[ x ] What are some of your favorite pig out foods - CHOCOLATE! and coke
[ x ] What's something that you wish people would understand - i have the right to say wadeva i want
[ x ] What's something you wish you could understand better - ALGEBRA!
[ x ] Anyone you miss that you haven't seen in a long time - NIC!
[ x ] my mother thinks i am: oo. there's a LONG list of things
[ x ] my grandma thinks i am: she's not on earth anymore.
[ x ] my boyfriend/girlfriend thinks i am: ...
[ x ] your three best qualities - ask nic.
[ x ] three worst qualities - ask ash. (ahaha)
[ x ] three things you are often complimented for -that's a very good question
[ x ] makes you happy - LOADS of things
[ x ] upsets you - loads of things too..
[ x ] you keep a diary - yup.
[ x ] you like to cook - ok la
[ x ] you have a secret you have not shared with anyone - yes! alot!
[ x ] you talk in your sleep - that is a very good question
[ x ] you bite your fingernails - nope
[ x ] you want more piercings - just 2 more..belly button and ears agn
[ x ] you want more tattoos - neh
[ x ] you drink - i drink water.
[ x ] you do drugs - nope
[ x ] you like cleaning - NO!
[ x ] you like roller coasters - yea!
[ x ] you write in cursive or print - nope
[ x ] you carry a donor card - nope
Have You
[ x ] ever cried over a boy/girl - nope
[ x ] ever lied to someone - yes
[ x ] ever been in a fist fight - WAD?! no.
[ x ] ever been arrested - nope!



my falling ; 6:55 PM

just came home from yannyee's place
cabbed back
cos i was too lazy to take bus

anyhow
had quite an enjoyable time with her today!
:)
ahaha
cos we wanted to go...
ehhhhh.
go where ah?
ok
somewhere la
then ended up at macs
and went to shop and save to get titbits
cos i thought she wanted to take bus tour to yishun and back
but no la!
she said go to the zoo
and i din want to
ahaha
so we started walking and talking
walked from street 13 to ave 2
to the bishan park there
and back to street 13
ahahaha
i din realise how deep she is
ahahaha
i have a complicated mother
:))

after walking
went back to her house
watched abit of zhen qing
:/
another really boring show
and then
home
:))

mom's in a good mood!
:))))
YAY!

8 more days to my ABRSM piano exam
:/



my falling ; 6:23 PM

am currently at yannyee's house
she says she wants to go eat ice kachang?
ahaha
nvm
anyhow
had lunch at her place today
lesson learnt
never and i mean NEVER ask yannyee to open a luncheon meat can
talk about disaster!

anyhow
she cooked some noodles for lunch today
not bad
was watching some show after that
VERY FUNNY
ahaha
:)
nearly died trying not to burst into hysterical laughter
yannyee thought i went nuts or something
:/

anyhow
now i'm bored stiff...
:/
hmmmmmmmmmmmmm
yannyee's watching tv
maybe i shall go get something to eat with her later
hmmm.
:)





my falling ; 2:12 PM

Saturday, August 14, 2004

I AM WELL AGAIN!
-thnk god
yesyes!
ahaha

last temp check showed 36.8
or something like that
THAT MEANS MY FEVER'S GONE!
ahaha!
yay!

actaully
that was like at around 4 plus
was kinda upset
cos that meant i had to go church with my mom
:/
she made me go ok!
din want to
insisted i would go all feverish again if i had to leave the house
but she said
-quotes her mother
"don't talk rubbish!"
so i had to go
wad the heck?!
no trng and church
:/
stupid

anyhow
met clarissa in church
din know she goes for sunset mass!
ahahaha
was saying what she was wearing was scandalous
ahaha
it was not la
just that her shirt had holes at the sleeves
so i was like
whao!
go geylang la
ahaha
and she was like SHHHH!
cos her mom was there
ahaha

mom's sick now
think she caught it from me
she went to see doctor
and we cabbed back

yup
found my bro and sis in law
at home watching football
told my sis in law bits of da vinci code
was telling to read it
but she said she had no time
din finish the whole story though
cos she had to go home
yup

you know
the more i think about it
the more skeptical i get about my religion
i'm a catholic by the way

cos it's like...
i sorta agree with jia
there's nothing
nothing at all
that can prove to me
there's a god up there
my mom says the devil's twisting my mind
maybe.
i dno
but really...
don you think so
mom says that my faith is weak
well it's weak cos there's nothing to strengthen it

i mean
i'm not trying to be anti-christ
hey i love my religion
(cos i think it's the only one that makes perfect sense. cept fot the is-there-really-a-god-up-there part)
it's just....
skeptical la...
and after reading the da vinci code
i'm finding it even harder to believe...
:/
for all who wants to know why
go read all 489 pages yourself
it's too long to elaborate

anyhow
pris said there's badminton game at 12..
ok..
at least that's what i think she's trying to say
but just said teletext said there's BEACH VOLLEYBALL at 12..
ok..
wadeva
will still check at 12 anyway

nic
ahaha?
nothing's wrong la
ahaha
why do you ask?
cos i said i'm not feeling well is it?
ahaha
i'm fine already la
chill bestie!
love you loads! :)





my falling ; 10:10 PM

i'm sick
:/
couldn't go for trng today
:(

oh well
spend the better part of the day
lying in bed reading the da vinci code
i LOVE that book
the twists are so good
though i was told of them before hand
ahaha
clarissa told me some
and jia told me some too
i think ash also told me one
ahaha
so i was sorta expecting everything
but heck
it was good
:)

gna start on life of pi soon
yay!

now i want angels and demons by dan brown
-hint hint to all
ahaha

hmmmmmm
am just rotting away now.
i want trng!
fever still hasnt gone down
currently at 37.7
:/
hope it goes down soon
having a splitting headache now.
later.




my falling ; 3:03 PM

Friday, August 13, 2004

freedom of speech
if you've got a problem with what i say
and what i do
well
too bad
don't ask me to change just
cos you can't take my overly critical words
i can do very well without you
what makes you think i'll stumble and fall
just cos you arent there to guide me?
for your information
i have my own bright shining torch
i can see my way perfectly well
thank you very much for you care and concern
but please
quit being such a pain in the ass
slut bitch whore

i am what i am
LIVE WITH IT





my falling ; 10:13 PM

YES!
i fianlly got another item on my wishlist
the da vinci code
YESYESYESYES!
ahaha
jia
you don have to lend it to me anymore
and pendragon rocks!
ahaha
:)
though i have to admit i really hate bobby's character
it was only loor that kept me going
ahaha
:))
but it was nice!

oh yes
clarissa came my house after school today
was suppose to go j8 with pris
but she had coaching
and i forgot to bring my wallet to school
then...
she was reading the da vinci code
and i was reading pendragon, the merchant of death
(highly recommended both books)

read for quite abit
and went down to play with my dogs
she really liked them i think
ahahahahahaha
:)))
kept petting them and making funny noises
ahaha

then left at around 430 to go for piano
piano today wasnt very good
screwed up on my scales
:/
damn
i slaved over the piano for 1 and a half hours yesterday
and i still screwed up
WAD THE HECK?
dno why i was super nervous though
maybe that's why
can't play under pressure?
which is stupid
cos i'll probably be SUPER nervous during the exam
hiax
:/
oh well

after lesson
met my mom
and had dinner together
then went borders
and i got the da vinci code !!
and life of pi
something that was highly recommended by ash
but i never got round to reading
ahaha
couldnt find ella enchanted
cos i forgot the authour's name
saw some new meg cabot books though
but i din like the gist at the back
so din get it in the end

anyhow
planning to read deep into the night today!
ahaha
the da vinci code that is
yup
probably stay up till 2 plus
though it really isnt good for me
cos i'm not feeling very well now?
got a fever of 37.8
probably wont be at trng tml
yup
:/
BUT I WNA GO!
mom forbids me to
:/
damn!
oh well

countdown till ABRSM piano exam : 10 more days



my falling ; 9:10 PM

Thursday, August 12, 2004

today was...
like any other thursday
uneventful.
cept maybe for during mep
yup
had my PBL presentation
-looks at my PBL group
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
we are a bunch of amusing and REALLY comical people no?
me and jia crapped up half the things we said

ok
for the benefit of non-mep people
PBL stands for what i really don know
but it's just some mep project
where you have to take either a dvd or cd
WHICH MUST BE RELATED TO CLASSICAL MUSIC IN SOME WAY
(you could hv imagine the look on my face when i realised that)
and try to promote it
by creating an advertisment
and coming up with a report on like
how you intend to promote it (like roadshows and wad have you)
and what age group do you think the dvd or cd or vcd for that matter
appeals too

yeah
anyhow
so clarissa did the report already la
and me and jia kept interupting each other
and me,
being the nice one
(ahaha)
just let her talk
ahahahaha

anyhow
jieying broke into hysterical laughter half way through it
for reasons i have yet to discover

anyhow
the whole thing was just crap la
ahaha
but we pulled it off
ahahaha
all hail us!
:)

anyhow
pris din come school today
cos she's sick
yup
pris
GET WELL SOON MY DEAR STUPIDS MEMBER!
:))

training today had only like 9 people?
cos all sec 3s weren't there
and pris and carol werent there too
gg was so scary today?
think he bad mood or something
so quiet
oh well
at least he's FINALLY back
:)
ahaha

went home with jean after that
:)

came home and spend like ONE AND A HALF HOURS ON THE PIANO?!
ahahaha
so proud of myself
din eat much for dinner today
dno why also
then hurry bathed
and chong to the piano
and practised non-stop
ahaha
my first piece is like SO nice now
ahaha
ignore the ego nessa
scales ok la
can finally get my melodic scales right
now i'm scared for whatchamacall it?
oh shit
i don even rmbr it's name
ahaha
ok nvm

i'm so prouda myself!
ahaha
:))





my falling ; 9:33 PM

Wednesday, August 11, 2004

speak the truth
the truth will set you free
-laughs hysterically while clutching sides and rolling on the floor

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
-stares hard at the rest of snbt




my falling ; 10:58 PM

needed a good laugh just now
so popped over to truthian's blogg
mrs seah's quotes
-prays that truthians don mind
click http://www.truth.trouble.at/
yup

it's so super funny!
as in the quotes
ahahahahaha

ok.
i'm kinda pissed now
CAN YOU STOP ASSUMING THINGS?!
:/
this is so utterly stupid
STUPIDSTUPIDSTUPID!
STOP IT!
HURRRRRRRRRRR!
what's wrong with a healthy friendship
OH NOTHING
yeah
that's what you say to me!
but not to others!
HURRRRRRR!
leave it
will you just LEAVE IT?!
-glares

nessa's in a bad mood
EVERYONE
stay far far away
:/



my falling ; 10:40 PM

pris's at my house now
she's sleeping really
ahaha
think she's super tired or something
she's staying over for dinner
AGAIN!
-looks at pris
ahahaha
:)

oh man!
she looks so cute when she's sleeping!
ahaha
i wna take picture!
ahahahahaha
but scared later she wake up and scold me ah!

anyhow
ash told me this DAMN funny movie she watched
was so stupid
and so funny
have decided not to watch the village
-looks at jia
don watch la
they all say it sucks
better not waste money
watch catwoman instead?
ahaha

anyhow
i dno what got into jia's head
but she wrote me a letter?
like OMG?!
oh i am SO honoured?!
leeJIAfang wrote me a letter?
i will always rmbr today as the day
the almighty great leeJIAfang took enough
notice of me to write me a letter?
-kisses the floor jia walks on
all hail the great almighty queen
please
ignore the sacarsm
-smirks

ahahahaha
jia said she'll lend me THE DA VINCI CODE!
YESYESYESYES!
ahaha
ooo
can't wait to get started!
ahaha
:)))

anyway
after school
met sheng pris and bee
had lunch
and did some work
then bee left
then sheng left
and me and pris cabbed to my place
ahaha
:)))))

then?
then...
here la!
ahaha
lalalalala
OH SHIT!
i just realised something!
:/
OH MAN!
now i have to come up with a lie and undo the terrible thing i just did
:/
shitshitshitshit
-slaps herself
blame yourself you dimwit incompetent idiot!
:/

clarissa
oh claree claree.
where forth art thou
for my heart longs for thy letter
and wither can thou reply me
for my patience is growing thin
and thou HAD BETTER HURRYHURRY REPLY ME!




my falling ; 5:00 PM

Tuesday, August 10, 2004

vanessa audris lim
WHAT THE HECK ARE YOU DOING HERE?!

oh goodness!
i shld be doing my art
ARTARTARTARTARTARTART!
i'm not going to be able to hand it up tml
i'm gna have all (how much is it upon agn?)
ok..
whatever the full marks is
so..
i'm gna have all (insert whatever the full marks is here)
taken away!
AHHHHHHH!!!
i cannot let that happen!

ok.
i had better run off now
yeah
and try to have fun
DRAWING MYSELF (!!!)

i hate art
i swear i do
the only thing i can draw properly a damn smiley face
:/

wish i was like jieying or something
SHE CAN DRAW!
-looks at jia
she can..
right?
ok if what i think is good
can't even be passed off as ok
what the heck is bad to me?
:/

i don talk sense
ah heck
anyone here think i can bribe jieying into drawing AND colouring for me
doubt it.
:/






my falling ; 8:12 PM

blogging for the second time today
am incredibly bored
i swear
boredem can be used as a form of punishment
:/

oh well
shall try my best not to complain anymore

i think pris and jean are coming over later
at bout 3..
to be honest
i have no idea..
but i think so
pris said she'll gimme a call
ahaha
:)

anyhow
watched lilo and stitch while eating dinner just now.
am planning to be a good girl and practise my piano after this
DISCIPLINE NESSA!
yesyes
must be disciplined
:/

am considering baking cookies for some reason
hmm..
better not
i'll end up making my mom super mad
cos i'll probably make the kitchen
look as if a hurricane had hit it or something
my mom will think world war 3 started and go into a crazy frenzy
we'll leave it then

got a craving for twirl
you know
that chocolate
:/
hmmmm....

anyhow
let's plan my schedule for today

nessa's list of things to do
1. PRACTISE PIANO
- EXTREMEMLY important with my exam coming up real soon

2. do my art hmwk
- important too as deadline is tml

3. do some work; study
- i must must! din do any work during the weekend. :/

4. do pris's blog
- been delaying that since dno when. :/

5. watch the village
- promised jia i'll watch it with her already!

6. GET OF THE COMPUTER RIGHT NOW AND GET STARTED
- -talks to self. get your lazy butt outta that chair and GET MOVING!




my falling ; 2:36 PM

feeling tons better today
well..
that's until i realised today's snbt outing day
AND MY SCREWED UP MOM REFUSES TO LET ME GO
she insist that i have played enough during the weekend
and friday and saturday was spent with the team
so there's no need for me to spend yet ANOTHER day with them

technically
that makes sense
but that still doesnt mean i can't sit down somewhere and sulk
well..
-sulks
hurr!
i wna go i wna go i wna go!

i'm acting like some 2 year old
:/
BUT I WNA GO!!!!!
not fair!
:/
now i have to spend my tuesday at home
thinking about how much fun they'll be having
:/

alternatively
i could be a good girl
and use this time wisely
like maybe FINISH UP MY HORRIBELY BEHIND TIME ART WORK
i still needa go find portraits can?
hiax..
:/
oh well

maybe i shld go do that...
fine fine i shld then
have got the whole long day
havta practise my piano
kinda scared for my melodic scales?
esp F sharp minor that page.
that the page before that
cant seem to rmbr...
:/

wad else?
oh yes.
sunday
went for a wedding dinner
my mom's classmate's son.
yup
the bride looked SO much like juliana
(that's one of my sis in law's bride's maids)
ahaha
for a minute i thought she was
until i saw her name was jesslyn
and she was alittle bit too tall
bride's pretty!
ahaha
and i liked her evening gown!
nice!

anyhow
the food was good i suppose
and i liked the chocolate they gave
VERY nice
:)
ahahaha

monday
uneventful
spend the whole day just lazing around and doing nothing
:/
was national day though
ahaha
:)
had piano at 2
din really had lesson la
ahaha
cos me and teacher were talking about the sixth sense and the others
we were talking about those things
ahaha
damn is my teacher cool or wad?
:))

ahaha
anyway
national day parade was ok la...
for some reason i found it SUPER short
ok nvm
din get to watch spore idol
cos my mom chased me off to practise piano
:/
HURR!
was thumping away quite hard
cos i was kinda pissed
ok nvm


guestbook replies

nic
GOD I LOVE YOU TONS!
ahaha.
yesyes
i signed your guestbook already
but that doesn't mean i cant say that again right?
ahaha
:)
nessalovesherbestiesloads!

jia
yesyes
i love you tons too
ahaha
be grateful!
ahaha
:)))
it's nice to know someone needs me just to complain to
ahaha
:)
nessalovesthepersonwholives10secondswalkawayfromherloads!

clarissa
i rox too!
ahaha
yeah!
wed's cool!
can ask my xiao de to come too!
and you can all make new friends!
AHAHAHA
ooo
this is fun!
:)
nessalovesahlualoads!


off to find a nice blogskin now
later





my falling ; 9:00 AM

Monday, August 09, 2004

i'm bored
bored bored bored
:/

can't get to sleep
:/
it's 134 AM
thinking of you
:/

don feel well
think i'm gna fall sick
:/

sinking into depression
someone save me
:/

someone make me stop doing this -> :/
:/
there i go again

for the past 20 seconds
i did not make sense
ignore me
:/

it's entirely _____'s fault
:/
i hate getting muddle up and confused
cos it means i don understand a thing
and i don like not understanding
(algebra's an exception. i gave up long ago)
hurr
:/

i need nic
i need cris
i need ash
i need stupids
i need my ah bu
i need you

i'm not fcuked up or anything
just don feel very good?
pms?
probably

someone tell me they care
:/







my falling ; 1:29 AM

maroon 5 she will be loved

Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else

I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want more

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get insecure
It doesn't matter anymore

It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls



my falling ; 1:16 AM

Sunday, August 08, 2004

mrs seah is so CUTE!
ahahaha
:)



my falling ; 4:52 PM

BACK FROM DESARU!
ahahahaha

desaru was generally ok
din really turn out to be what i thought it would be though
but wad the heck

friday
jen's father fetched me and erica to school
had to walk up at 615
but was FULLY awake
super excited la
then reached school
had some housekeeping thing
and badminton ah
IS ALWAYS LAST IN EVERYTHING
like board the bus right?
we are bus number 7
the last one
can la!
humph!
we shld be first lor!
since we are
Badminton
B!!
sheesh
oh well

then.
sat next to pris
played cards with carol tiong and chew on the bus
play until got giddy
cos my back was facing the driver(?)
reached the singpore custom there pretty fast
was having fun with chew's phone
kept taking pictures
and we were quite noisy really

then malaysian custom
took yun sheng as my daughter
ahaha
my family is growing!!

then
took family potrait minus erica and exta pris and chew
ahaha

then?
off to the fruit farm
was nice
ahaha
chew was being lame la!
we were holding hands and acting like some 4 year old?
wad shou qian shou, yi qi zhou kinda thing
ahaha

fruit farm was nice la
but there were bees around
and one of the bees kept flying around belinda?
ahaha
got kinda freaked
the fruits were ok
i liked the orange best
so super sweet

then?
bought cup noodles at the shop there
intended to eat it at the hotel

then back onto the bus
to hotel
realised all this time rachel and germaine were sitting behind me
had fun with them and pris
ahaha
took candid shots with them
ahaha
rachel is so cute!
ahaha
and she's officially my grand daughter
cos manda took her as daughter
ahaha
:))

then the hotel
squeesed our backs to this pathatic sized room
and had high tea?
sandwiches la
din taste very nice
but the coffee or tea or wadeva is was
was nice
then went off for rafting

rafting was FUN!
ahaha
got so super hot building the raft
ahaha
bel threatened to push me into the lake or wadeva it was we were in
but she din in the end
ahahaha
anyhow
sn badminton and hockey team rock my socks!
:))

then had obstacle course
WAD FUN!
the rope thing was so super fun!
fell in
but was SUPER nice
got super wet and super dirty
ahaha
jean jen and some primary snbt girl crossed it though
ahaha
the second time i got so dirty
went into the lake with bel
ahaha
swam around in my shirt and shorts
andwas super wet la
ahaha
rahh manda and bee went down too
the mud was so slippery though

ahaha
walked back to the hotel and took our keys
waited a super long time to take my bag
and went off to my room
room 638
carol and sheng on my right
and chew and bel on my left
ahaha
had shou jin and beverly as my xiao de
OMG
they are so super cute?!
ahaha

then?
bathed
and went down for dinner
dinner was good!
ahaha
bbq stuff
got more pictures
and took one candid one of manda jean and pris
ahaha

tiong took bee and jen as daughters!
ahaha
even BIGGER family!

then..
had dinner
and back to my room
was super SUPER dark la!
absolutely no lights at all
but the sky had so many stars
so nice!

yannyee and chew wanted to sleep in my room
so chew went back to get her stuff
but bel and michelle were in her room
-stares at bel
erhem erhem
wad they were doing i dno la
but
ahaha
-hack hack
ahaha
chew took her things
and made bel help me move yannyee's matress over
she was complaing that she was running outta time
ahahaha
bel
time for wad ah?
ahaha
:)

then
had pillow fight with chew and tiong
end up grabbing chew ACCIDENTALLY where the sun don shine
ahahahahahahahahahaha
and we started tickling each other
AHAHAAHAHAHAHA
sorry chew!
then back down to the dining hall for briefing
pris din look very happy
:/
oh well

after briefing
went back to the room
had yannyee,carol,sheng and tian yi over at my room
they stayed over
played cards for a while and went to bed
din sleep very well though
kept waking up
tiong woke me by poking me with her knee
beverly couldn't sleep either so she kept turning
got motor cycle outside wake me up
got lizard and cricket and wad have you
and was kinda freaked out too
but slept in the end

sat
woke up at around 620
lazed around
made the xiao de wash up first
so we could sleep alittle more
then sheng went to brush her teeht
then yannyee then me
woke tiong up
and after washing up
we all went down for breakfast

breakfast was ok la
had nasi lemak with pancakes
ahaha

after breakfast
went for the jungle survial thing
was wuite interesting
but technically of no use
i mean
honestly
wad are the odds of you being stranded in a forest
in singapore?
damn
there arent no proper forest for you to get lost in
in the first place
oh well
nvm
then walked SUPER long to our trekking place there
was singing all the way with snbt
:)))

trekking was ok la
no leeches though
ahaha

then walked SUPERSUPERSUPER long back to the hotel
bathed
and packed up
brought our bags down to the lobby
and had lunch on the patch of grass at the hotel
lunch was disgusting
after that
took team photo
and had free and easy
went down to the beach with chew tiong carol jean and tricia
WAS SUPER FUN!
ahahaha

ahaha
the waves were SUPER big
and we got super wet
smoemore wearing white
but nvm la
was still fun
:)))))
ahaha
the waves were SOSOSOSO nice
chew cut her leg though
but i saved the day by piggy-backing her back to the assemble area
ahaha
was so super wet and dirty
and i got super dark
ahaha
had briefing
and took more team photos after that

had dinner but me chew and jean went to change first
the toilet was disgusting
but wadeva
so changed and ate dinner
dinner was definately better than lunch

had some evaluation thing
and it was time to go back!
badminton was suppose to be on bus number 1
and we all were so happy
cos we thought for once we were gna be the first
then funny la!
bus 6 went up first
then bus 2
then5
then 3 then 1
what the heck?!
ok nvm

played cards with peixuan (one game) tiong manda jean and pris
then went to sleep cos i was super tired
after like 4 or 5 games

slept pretty well
pris is such a dear
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH PRIS!
:))))))

then school
and jen's father send me and erica back home
yup
so that marks the end of the sports girls training trip 2004
:)

it was technically ok la
pris wasn't very happy though
:/
oh well
nvm
PRIS!
you still rock my socks!
:)))

whao
such a long entry!
just read something from 2truth's blog
AHAHAH
mrs seah is so so so cute!
example.
"If you didn't bring your worksheet, too bad! Just sit there and meditate on what injustice you have done to yourself and your parents!"
WHAT?!
ahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

anyhow
i wna say to snbt
YOU ALL ROCK MY SOCKS!
yesyes
i'm so proud to be in snbt!
:)))))))





my falling ; 7:18 AM

Thursday, August 05, 2004

pris is laughing over my blogger account name
stupid toot
:/
hurr!
ahahaha

anyway
she's at my house
and i really wna say
THANK YOU MRS SEAH
yesyes!
you rock my socks!
ahahahahaha
:))))))

and pris
i know you're right next to me now
but wadeva
THNX TOO!
yesyes
all hail you
-kneels down and worships

ok
so today had the racial harmony thing
did the however-you-spell-it thing
YES!
2 faith rocks my socks!
ahaha
faithians all the way!
we were good man!
and mel ng's mom's fren the curry was SUPER nice
ahahahaha

was rather snappy today though
sorry to all who got snapped at by me
people like
jean`tiong`mrs seah`pris`yannyee`
ok
practically everybody else
SORRY!

pris say she accepts!
ahaha
:)))

anyway
had to go to ica (immigration and checkpoint authority)
to change my passport photo
was so anxious?
mrs seah drove me back home
and yannyee was suppose to follow me
but then she had to be back home early
and she wanted to go out with the team today
so DEARDEAR pris went with me
(she is so nice to sleep on)

anyhow
came home
took birth cert.
forgot to take passport
(WHAT?!)
then went to mom's office to get her to sign the form
then came back to take passport
then went to ica

took photo and everything was done super fast?
ahaha
was in there for barely 15 mins!

then mrs seah treated me and pris to one cup of pepsi and mee siam
ahaha
so nice right?
-gloats
then she send me and pris back to my house

then showed pris my bro's wedding photos
nice right?!
ahahahaha
then went to bullion park to get drinks
she drank her ice lemon tea SO fast can?
wad the heck?
i drank ONE sip of my coke
she finish liao
whoa
world record ah!

then went to the park
was fun singing SWING SWING
ahahaha
we wanted to hint to the people on the swings we wanted the swings la
but obviously those thick headed idiots did not get the VERY obvious hint

anyway
there was this SUPER cuckoo boy who was trying to impress us
was damn stupid
he was like
"see? i throw so far"
wadeva la!

left at about 7
then dinner
then here!
ahaha
:))





my falling ; 7:56 PM

Tuesday, August 03, 2004

tuesday
I GOT MY SPECS!
whao
everything is just so super clear!
ahaha

anyway
ms lim talked to snbt today
still dno what the problem is?
but shall just pretend i do
got bits here and there
ms lim was drilling into us
that sngs cares for us
teachers very good
very trustable

i got kinda irritated
cos i REALLY wanted to know wad the problem was?
but she kept going on about the
school good
teachers good thing

ya la
left early
cos i needed to collect my specs

wednesday today
during assembly
somebody called all the catholic girls up
stupid ash decided she din want to run morning jog
so she followed me up to the specs stand
stupid girl
ahaha
went toilet and tried to cure my puffy eyes
was so tired la!
oh well nvm

jie ying is pmsing
i just know she is
she's been acting weird lately
:/

recess.
erm.
had the sports girl trip briefing
I'M BUNKING WITH MY DEAR SISTER!
who's tiong`ah toots`winnnie
ahaha
so fun!
think pris is bunking with rahh
we're both happy
but it'll be nicer if i was bunking with pris
but i'm cool with tiong too!
:))))

anyhow
can't wait for friday can liao la!
ahahahahaha!
:))))))
bet anyone anything i'm gna take forever to sleep on thursday!
:/
ah heck

am gna be in school earlyEARLY tml
cos na has to teach me the however-you-spell-it steps
and the song
oh well

after school
clarissa came my house
did the mep thing
IT'S DONE!
ahaha
and quite well done too i must say
:))

clarissa
I'M PROUD OF US!
(notice the choice of words. US)
ahaha

she left at about 418?
she had german class at like 430 at moelc?
sheesh
betcha anything she was late
ahaha

pris came over at about 5
let her try custard apple
she liked it as much as i did!
ahaha
we went to the park at about 630
was fun!
ahaha
played some memory thing there
and i made her name in the soil
she was suppose to do my name
but she gave up half way
ahaha
my "pris" was so nice right?
ahahaha

had dinner when we came back
and she left at around 845?
yup

pris
we both are lame people la!
:))






my falling ; 9:52 PM

TALKING TO NIC NOW!
yay!
ahaha
miss talking to her SO much
:))))

anyway
went j8 with pris today
wanted to go get hairband
was begging yannyee to go with us
cos me and pris were at her house
watching some chinese show i din really understand
cos had no subtitles
then that ah bu of mine don wna go la!
fine nvm
so me and pris went instead

went there
got some chicken thing
was nice
then
yup to mini toons to get hair band
then..
where ah?
popular i think
to get file
then.
down to the market place to get food
ahaha
then..
walk around and we saw this wallet we both like!
so super nice!

yesyes pris
we MUST get the same wallet
ahaha
:))

walked around till bout 630 then home






my falling ; 7:22 PM