Friday, December 31, 2004

cut to the chase

yesterday
my maid woke me up at around 1030
realise it was SWEET lua and jia on the phone
jia persuaded my maid to wake me up
was extremely grumpy but agreed to meet them at macs to kill time
(well, them not me. i could have been sleeping)
(jia, you're a sweetheart. love ya too!)

anyhow
was late by 15 minutes
cos after i hung up, i went back to bed
HEHHHHH

had the chicken fold over thingy
and we crapped quite abit
took goofy pictures with lua's new phone
i love lua and jia to bits and pieces!
(:


met winnie at one and walked over to mos burger
had lunch there
and bitched alittle

left at around 2
took 135 down to marist

played peixuan and bel first
then winnie and carolynn
or was it meibei and rahh first?
i can't rmbr la

anyhow
met yannyee xian bin and weiyang at the bus stop near marist after everything ended
(walked first with pris)
weiyang finally realised i was his grand daughter
he's super amusing

had dinner at kfc heartland
with pris winnie peixuan yannyee and weiyang

after that, walked over to weiyang's house as yannyee wanted to collect some books
and her mother agreed to send me to amk
in the end her mother sent me home

today

reached marist at around 820
went down to primary hall

played 3 matches today
ming xuan and kenny
derek and wyman
pris and sheng

lost to derek and wyman
alright la
6 and 13
not thrashing

my idols are ranked SECOND!
woo hoo!
after sunnny jiao lian and bay
my idols rock la
won jing kai and clarence

jingkai says i'm nuts to idolise shengkai and jaryl
perphaps i am
yeahh sure they are not very very very zai
but i like the way they play
very.. DOUBLES-ISH pro
so cool. the way they bu for each other

me and chew are ranked 10
not bad la

after the whole thing ended
meeting with snbt at the two stone lions there
was.. enriching
i will try my extreme best to change
i really really will
so if next time i say something i shouldn't
please tell me
cos i need to know
and that's how i can change
yeahhhh
-looks down

had a mini talk with pris
i think we should do this more often
it'll be good la
i dno if pris would want to
but i definately want to
i like it like that so much more than everyone keeping mum
cos then i can change for the better
and not be kept in the dark

lunch with rahh carol sheng and winnie at kfc AGAIN
then up to popular to get my eraser

then, trained and bused back
wedding dinner later
at RITZ CARLTON
woo hooooo
good food
-beams


i shall continue on the
i-will-not-shoot-offending-stuff-at-people-implusive-side-of-me thingy again soon
there's alot of things i needa clear up on
to me. and to other people






my falling ; 5:53 PM

Wednesday, December 29, 2004

1. At least 5 people in this world, love you so much they would die for you.

die for me? there's nothing to die for.

2. At least 15 people in this world love you, in some way.

that's encouraging

3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you, is because they want to be just like you.

i'll think about that

4. A smile from you, can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.

to make someone happy by simply similing is just.. ODD

5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.

WAHAHAHA. you have GOT to be kidding!

6.You mean the world to someone.

do i? i sure wish i meant the world to that SOMEONE

7. Without you, someone may not be living.

i agree. i provide special help for suicidal people. -stares at CERTAIN PEOPLE

8. You are special and unique, in your own way.

isn't everyone?

9. Someone that you don't know even exists, loves you.

WAHAHAHA. i'm not some big shot celebrity know...

10. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.

that happened before.

11. When you think the world has turned it's back on you, take a look, you most likely turned your back on the world.

pms is sometime i cannot avoid

12. When you think you have no chance at getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you believe in yourself, you probably sooner or later will get it.

wait here while i go sort that out

13. Always remember compliments you received, forget about the rude remarks.

i can't even rmbr my compliments, much less rude remarks, short term memory?

14. Always tell someone how you feel, then they'll know.

i NEVER do that. even if i fallen way in love with that person.

15. If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they're great.

i do. :)



my falling ; 11:18 PM

i bitch, so sue me

woke up at 7.22
rushed rushed rushed
left the house at 8
cabbed down to marist
was BARELY on time

warmed up and stuff
then played doubles
first game won joshua and jackye
second game lost xian bin and samuel
third game won erica and jen
fourth game won weifeng and john
fifth game lost jaryl and shengkai

got mildy pissed at john
immensely amused at jary and shengkai

anyhow
had 2 sessions
first session played the first 2 matches
then went for lunch at heartland mall
had kfc
then went walking around with pris and rahh
got some super cute monkey thingy at mini toons
went to kiddy palace and was generally amused
met cui yun, rui yi and somebody else there
pl people

then cabbed back to marist
we three were NICEEE people

played the other 3 matches
since we lost 2 matches
we're in top 16

after the whole thing ended
bused down to heartland mall again
with dania chew rahh yupei and winnie
had some fish soup thingy

had MAJOR bitchin session
had PLENTY PLENTY of laughs too
yannyee yupei went walking in heartland mall
(we were in the hawker center)
jingkai came and more bitchin
chew winnie left when yannyee and yupei came back
even more bitchin with rahh dania and jingkai
then rahh left
MORE bitchin!

left at about 930?
went to the bus stop and EVEN MORE BITCHIN!
told jingkai about patrick lim jing kai bobby
and he was.. nevermind
no word to describe

anyhow
took 136 back home ALONE!
-stares at dania

tmr got spring cleaning
nessa's not going to be there!
oh yes,
did i mention?
I'M IN THE SAME CLASS AS CHEW!
-beams
BUTTTTTT
not the same class as ash
-pouts
she's in loyalty
while i'm in JUSTICE
-sighhhhh
2nd year in a roll
chances are, next year we won't be in the same class either
-bites lower lip
and what is this!?
bel's in the same class as ash
WHAT IS THIS?!








my falling ; 10:39 PM

Tuesday, December 28, 2004

my thank you list

pris ;
for the SUPER cute spongebob waterbottle
i will bring it for all trainings!
thank you dear

chew ;
for the box of heavenly chocolates
thank you dear

yannyee and sheng;
for the oh so cute cup, even though the words are in chinese
thank you dears

dania ;
for the cute lil cow and the chocolates
I LOVEEEE COWS!
how did you ever know?
thank you dear

bel ;
for the lovely lipgloss
thank you dear

rachel ;
for the oh so cute happy house pig and earrings
thank you dear

qiaowei ;
for the super sweet bear in a bottle
thank you dear

manda ;
for the nice nice ice-cream
-winks
thank you dear

rahh ;
for the super nice home made card
thank you dear

bee and jen ;
for the sinfully sweet candy cane
thank you dears

morgan ;
for the pretty swirly thing and collusion course
thank you dear

jia ;
for the VERY VERY nice earrings
thank you dear

sis in law ;
for the NICE NICE NICE ripcurl bag
thank you dear

aunties and uncles ;
for all the presents i have yet to open
thank you dears

brother ;
for a certain amount of money
thank you dear

mom ;
for ALOT of things
thank you dear


and anyone i have missed out
i am sorry
i still love you all anyway
-beams







my falling ; 1:43 PM

is a title really necessary?

the day before yesterday; 261204
brother sent me and winnie to the chalet
found the place
me manda and pris took 354 down to white sands
had to get morgan's christmas present and flowers for the team
nothing exciting happened

after a while
me manda sheng jen and winnie went to some clearing and played with my beach ball
was super fun and super full of shit
laughed until i nearly died

went back and had dinner
if you can call it dinner
didn't really eat much
started helping to cook the food
was not bad ehhh!
pretty fun
chew predicted that joshua would die by one am the next morning of terminal cancer
cos he ate too many prawns
it was so funny
and manda tried UNDRESSING me
chew also
PERVERTIC KNOW!

anyhow
after dinner
(which did i mention the marist people were at too?)
went for a long long bitchin sesson with pris
spilled quite alot about me

went back to the chalet cos we were actually by the pool
and realised yannyee had called a tiny meeting
talked things out with the team
and i think it's jsut the training bit we're slightly weak in
everything else, snbt rocks la

anyhow
had a little talk with yannyee
-hugs
i love my ah bu alot alot alot alot

then, more bitchin with pris
after quite some time
went back to the chalet

watched ah bu play mahjong
INTERESTING!
learned how to play from my ahbu

i can't really rmbr what i did from about 1am to 5 30
played cards i think
or was it even more bitching?
ook, nevermind

anyhow
fell asleep at around 6?
woke up at 630
cos some moron step on my toes for a grand total of 3 times
initially didn't want to follow pris they all go see sunrise
but decided to in the end
ran off to catch up with them
end up watching the moonset with pris
the moon looks damn nice over the sea la!

went back and tried to sleep
couldn't
then just lazed around in the chalet
and finally managed to fall asleep
woke up at around 1
went down and played mahjong none stop
it's fun fun fun!
skipped dinner but had tons of juke food

stopped playing for a bit and played bullshit with manda jingkai and morgan
it was super duper shittified la
but had fun

went back to mahjong after a while
played till about 3
and the seniors took over
was trying to return morgan his 10 bucks but he refused to take it

me carol and morgan started playing bullshit
was SUPER fun!
laughing and laughing
got on high i think
cos we all drank vodka
somemore had lemon tea before that
CAFFINE!

went walking around the beach with pris after that
cos me pris morgan and carol were suppose to play truth or dare
but morgan abandoned us
so we went to the beach
was nice at frist
but it got really scary after awhile
constantly felt that i was being watched

back to the chalet and yupei was mildy drunk
she was full of shit la
watch her winnie morgan and pokiat play mahjong
pris went to sleep

went for a bitchin session with morgan by the pool
he started playing wheel of fortune with the umbrella?!
was funny
morgan vandol goh is a BIG FAT LIAR la
we played truth or dare
and i was dared to throw my slipper into the middle of the pool and go get it
so i threw it in the middle of the baby pool
but morgan got my other slipper and threw it into the adult pool
and i couldn't reach it
so i had to jump in and got all wet
i got even though
pushed morgan in
wahahahaha

we got awfully cold and i admit la
i cannot blow dry hair one
-hides

changed and more mahjong
but got super tired
morgan desperately wanted to play as he wanted to win
but he still didn't
tried to sleep by the poolside
but it was too cold
so went back to the room and slept there
felt so bad for morgan

woke up this morning and cleared the chalet
cleaned up
and checked out
cabbed back home with bee and qiaowei

i'm really beat now
and i shall go sleep soon
this is one long entry
-yawns












my falling ; 11:50 AM

Saturday, December 25, 2004

beautiful soul

today was fun!
went down to amk ntuc first to get the brownie mix
then down to yck mrt station to meet pris sheng and winnie
sheng and winnie were late
cabbed back down to my house

had lunch
then watched white chicks
was FUNNY!

then baked the brownies
was sucessful!
my older brother came by
and he started the fire
he is SUCHHH a lamer

anyhow
sheng left at about 630
pris stayed on
dinner was good
talked about alot of stuff

went walk walk with pris and winnie
had a TEEENY WEEENY bitchin session at my playground
then back home and had fun with my beach ball

brother sent pris and his girlfriend home
on the way back
talked about CERTAIN things
-stares at winnie
was INTERESTING
and a true eye opener
ahaha

chalet tmr
i can't wait!
-BEAMS
snbt rocks my socks
and i'm gna see my NOBLE SERVANT again!
-BEAMS
:))))
nessa's happy!
:)))




my falling ; 10:55 PM

my falling ; 1:49 AM

santa can you hear me?
i have been so good this year

all i want for christmas is you
(and everything else on my wishlist)


my falling ; 1:36 AM

Friday, December 24, 2004

i'll stand by you

yesterday
morning was boring
spend nearly the whole day doing the snbt blogg
took nearly forever to settle on a blogskin
and it still doesn't suit us
a BADMINTON team

anyhow
big brother called me at around 1245
asked me whether i wanted to go on a shopping spree with my sis in law
i practically jumped at the chance

sis in law picked me up at 130
down to orchard
went to taka and helped her select presents for all my cousins
she got me a ripcurl bag from surfbabe
love my da sao TONS!
:))))
got gelato from the market place and came back home for dinner
brother came back for dinner
and he called me a poser
so i called him a statue
go figure

my brother is such a lamer i cannot take it
-shakes head

today
trng EARLY in the morning again
was 13 minutes late
cos i thought it was 8 when it was actually 9
thank god for my sweet second brother who sent me to school

played handball
it was lame
i was practically dancing with pris
WAHAHAHAHA

had friendly with marist people
was alright la
played daryl first
won 3 sets
the game was shitified
i swear i hate the school hall
it's too freaking windy

then doubles with chew
played shawn and samuel
oh my god la
i want to kill pan cake face
WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH HIM?!
he and his freaking attitude
like, GO SCREW YOURSELF OR SOMETHING
got super pissed off and was seriously contemplating murdering him
shawn wasn't so bad
as chew would say, he has some gentleman traits
and by that i don't mean he gave us points or anything
(i hate that to be honest)
i mean, he was. NICE
not like pan cake face
whom i predict will never find himself a girl
oh well, who cares
we still won them
-sticks out tongue

then paired with chew play morgan and daryl
it was SOO stupid
morgan kept saying sorry whenever he won a rally
and chew was being lame
cos everytime SHE won a rally,
she would go YAY!
my goodness la
was laughing like some moron

ran some relay thing after that
was FUN!
wahahahahahaha

then, was trying to persuade morgan to tell me the name of the girl he liked
which he still didn't
down to the canteen with pris to get a drink
walked to the bus stop
and met morgan sunny and samuel (i think) at the bus stop
realised they were going town too
we took 268 down while they took 269
dno why they took 269 also

reached amk mrt station
first two trains too crowded
took the third one instead

down to somerset
was gwaking at the poster of nokia 7200
I WANT I WANT!!

went to heeren
couldn't find anything
then to cathy
had lunch there
morgan is crazy
i swear he is
-shakes head
then walked over to tangs
and got snbt's christmas presents
then walked to far east
then back to wisma
walked alot today come to think of it

trained back
had dinner at like 5?
had to rush down to church for mass
mass was BORING
and i wasn't even paying attention
was too freaking tired

met brenda at church
she is SUCHHH a sweetheart
-hugs

mom went out with her friend while i came back
was way too tired
i have a craving for campbell soup
shall ask my maid to cook while i watch ocean's eleven
-beams
BRAD PITT!!
-faints

do they know it's christmas time at all









my falling ; 10:32 PM

Thursday, December 23, 2004

i made a new blogg for snbt!
click here



my falling ; 1:31 PM

i have a piece of ground-breaking news
my stupid moron of a dog
fell into my fish pond
MY LORD!
can you imagine that?
i mean, HONESTLY!
how thick can you get?
she's alright now though, just that her left paw's bleeding
stupid dog
-shake head
my mom was so shocked when i called her and told her
-roars with laughter




my falling ; 10:05 AM

shoutouts

pris !
PRISSSSS!
i'm sorry i'm so immensely sorry
-slaps herself
please don't be angry at me ok??

morgan
don't forget to write a particular somebody's name inside the cd ahh!
need to constantly REMIND you
keep your promise ahh!
-grins

sistahh!
how's my darling sistahh today?
hope your injuries all hurry heal yeahh?
love my sistahh tons and tons!

guestbook replies

jia
YOU DIDN'T CALL ME YESTEDAY!
how could you?!
but it doesn't matter la
i love jia tons and tons

jinan
you full of shit woman!
ahahaha
i know you love me and you know it too lor!
don't try to deny it
i love jinan!
(but i know she loves me more!)

dania; auntie
my auntie's NICEE!
:)))
as for why i mentioned bay on my blogg
you ask him la.
long story
don't think crooked
love my auntie tons!
:)))










my falling ; 9:16 AM

tilt your head back

yesterday
trng EARLY EARLY EARLY EARLY in the morning
woke up latee though
was going all frantic as jiao lian said late comers had to run for punishment
thankfully my nice nice brother agreed to send me to school

trng was fun!
and slackish
:))

after trng
had a meeting at the new spec's stand
just talking about chalet and stuff la

bused down to post center with pris rach qiao sheng and yannyee
fell asleep on the way
lunched at post center
got awfully cold and rach said i went all pale

bused down to sbh after that

watched and watched and watched
fu ming tian and zhang beiwen's doubles pair is OHMYGOD-ish
and they are so cute la!
as sheng would say, fu mingtian looks like a doll
and zhang beiwen's just CUTE la!

there were alot alot of 3 games played
some ran up to 17/13 points
(if you arent a badminton player, forget about understanding that)

got pissed off
and now that i think about it
IT WAS STUPID
i really wna say sorry to pris
sorry babe. my emotions RAN HIGH
(like it always does)
and then i just spurt out anything that comes to mind
i am sorry if i hurt you in anyway
i truly truly am

rach and qiao are so amusing
went down to shell with them
and they started talking crap
i STILL don't think so
no real evidence
cannot anyhow say

had a crapping session with sheng and qiao
yannyee just sat there and listen
it was so freaking funny?
sheng paired me up with terry?!?!?
-SHUDDER
and i paired her up with ASHTON
WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
off cos, as it was a crapping session
nothing was for real

left the hall at around nine
bused home with pris shuwen and yannyee
met yunhua at the bus stop

came home, got pissed off at my mom
i won't say why

anyhow
shall call yannyee later
she and sheng are going out
but the thing is...
if i was to go.
oh well, i shouldn't be evil and post it here

holidays are nearly over
chalet's nearly here
jia and lua's leaving
HEART PAIN!
love you two so very very much
-HUGS



















my falling ; 8:38 AM

Tuesday, December 21, 2004

five for fighting; superman

i can't stand to fly
i'm not that naive
i'm just out to find
the better part of me

i'm more than a bird
i'm more than a plane
more than some pretty face beside a train
it's not easy to be me

wish that i could cry
fall upon my knees
find a way to lie
about a home i'll never see

it may sound absurd
but don't be naive
even heroes have the right to bleed
i may be disturbed
but won't you concede
even heroes have the right to dream
it's not easy to be me

up, up and away
away from me
it's all right
you can all sleep sound tonight
i'm not crazy
or anything

i can't stand to fly
i'm not that naive
men weren't meant to ride
with clouds between their knees

i'm only a man in a silly red sheet
digging for kryptonite on this one way street
only a man in a funny red sheet
looking for special things inside of me

it's not easy to be me.



my falling ; 10:27 PM

there she goes

watched tv till about 12
then cabbed down to sbh
pris and morgan were already there

went shell with morgan
and met yannyee and sheng on the way

morgan treated me (AGAIN) mocha
the can one
he got hundred plus for sheng and yannyee

morgan's my NOBLE SERVANT!
-beams
:)))

anyhow
morgan is SOO entertaining
he learned how to play bullshit today
and think he really likes it
WAHAHAHAHA

i was trying to force him to tell me his crush
which at i failed horriblely
talked to him about the marist people
was... ENTERTAINING
:))))

he showed me and pris some card tricks
which i really want to know how he does
he failed quite badly at the last one
AHAHAHAHAHAHA
but he is SOOO cute i cannot take it

at about 330?
bused down to town
he told yannyee his crush's name!
but he won't tell me
nevermind
i shall not force him anymore

me and pris went to get cards from kino
then went to get tori q
sat on the stair case to eat
morgan is SOOOO cuteeeeee!!

walked over to heeren and walked around
went in to hmv and was still trying to get morgan to tell me
i only know one
i want to know the other one!

anyhow
went to old chang kee
and morgan said i force him to get some charity thing
what the hell
abit 10 bucks la
now i'm feeling so guilty
sorry yahh?
-bites lower lip

then.
trained back

today was generally a good day?
cept for the part i got a teeny bit pissed off
but now it's alright la
now i think i got pissed off at something very stupid
-slaps

oh well.
trng tmr
EARLY in the morning
dno how i'm gna wake up
GO NESSA!
-beams





my falling ; 7:28 PM

oh fcuk!
i really needa go practise my piano
it has been one whole entire week since i last touch it
I MISS MY SWEET BLACK AND WHITE KEYS!
-nessa runs down to her piano



my falling ; 9:39 AM

eighth world wonder ;

yesterday; 20122004
trng EARLY in the morning
was nearly late
actually i was,
but the rest were still sweeping the hall floor
so it doesn't really matter. hehh
i hate having to wake up so early during the hols
totally defeats the whole purpose of holidays

did weights.
now my shoulders are aching
even though i cooled down
-sulks
also did that squat jump thing which totally killed my legs
felt so jelly-like after that.

lunched in school
then cabbed down to sbh with pris and rachel
yannyee and sheng left first to go do dno what also.
felt evil cos we didn't wait for dania
SORRY AUNTIE!
-bites lower lip

talked about quite alot of things during the trip down
dania and qiao also cabbed down

the games were..
alright la
i don't really know since i fell asleep
was freaking tired la
but dania's racket bag is so hard!
but nevermind.
i still managed to sleep
say it, i rock la!
-beams

yannyee and sheng came later.
i can't rmbr what i did.
played taidee i think

dania pris and rachel came back from the shell kiosk
they got cup noodles
went up to where they were sitting
and starting coping dania's cup noodles
was stupid
SORRY AUNTIE!

i can't really rmbr what happened after that
but i know rachel started tying my hair
i know my hair rocks la
nice and smooth and it always go back to the original way it was
rachel was LAMEEE
she tied me and sheng's hair tgt
what is this?!
ahahahaha

rachel and qiao left at about 6?
then watched ashton's brother aaron if i'm not wrong, play
he lost 3 sets
so sad!

anyhow
7 oclock watched the boy's under 15 doubles
kept me entertained
the indo pair i wanted to win didn't win!
so saddening
i also dno why i wanted them to win
they also not say very zai.
but i dno la!

morgan smsed pris ask if we wanted him to come down
i said YESSSSS
but he didn't in the end since if he did it would be very pointless
since we were all leaving around 8 plus?
i miss morgan.
-sulks.
nevermind, seeing him today
YAYYY!
:)))

730, girls under 15 doubles
my opponent on sunday lost
i wanted them to win!
why is it all the ones i want to win don't win?!

left at about 805
cabbed back with yannyee

today; 211204
going to sbh with pris sheng and yannyee again
morgan said he was coming! :)))
think we're going taka after that?
yannyee wanted to go taka early in the morning
crazy!
my beauty sleep is important know


references to blogs

dania
my darling sweet nice pretty auntie
don't angry we left WITHOUT you and qiao ok?
angry got high blood pressure
you want to die young is it?!
you got high blood pressure i must buy you what bird nest,
shark fin to help you bu sheng
don't want. so expensive
love my auntie tons and tons!
:)))))

yannyee
MOTHER!
what wth we took cab down?
should be we wth you left without us ahh!
ahahaha
but it's alright la
i love my mother alot alot alot!
:))))


guestbook replies

tiong
i love my SISTAH to the end of the world and back!
:)))

jia
i apologise for the huge overlook on my part
-bites lower lip
it was suppose to be singapore badminton hall
but sba (spore badminton association) is just next to it
anyhow
i miss you alot alot alot!
-bites lower lip
and next year you're gna be at njc while i rot away at st nicks
you must call me EVERYDAY alright?
and drag me out for random 55 minute walks
love my darling jia lots and lots!
:)))








my falling ; 9:00 AM

Monday, December 20, 2004

BLAST IT!

blogger can seriously go screw itself
lost my nice long entry
RAHHHHHH!

ok
i will keep my cool

morning call by yannyee in the morning

down to yck mrt station
met chew
and took 70 down to sbh
chew is seriously paranoid
kept thinking we were gna be late
but we weren't
met clovie on the bus
-waves

played the expression-less taipei pair
i think they are so cute!
ahahahahaha
win no expression
lose also no expression
failure know!
no communication skills
hahaha

lef at around 1230
back home for lunch
showered, chatted with my sis in law
and back to sbh

missed yunnie's and rachel's match
sorry!

played alot of tai dee today
so interesting
joshua is so amusing
so freaking full of shit
want to bet also don't need to bet your phone right?
-shakes head

yannyee got clarence to buy cheng tng to me her and valerie
was happily eating my cheng tng and playing tai dee with joshua morgan and qiao
when joshua insisted on coping my cheng tng
being the nice person i am
i let him
he abit can la!
choke on the sago ball
WHAT IS THIS?!

joshua disappeared after a few rounds
so me qiao and morgan started playing open card taidee
FUN!
basically the same as normal tai dee cept you open all your cards
morgan invented it
-beams

morgan is SOOO cute i cannot take it
he's so cute so nice so obliging so amusing and so...CUTE!
(wait, i mentioned that already)
he enjoys treating people
got money to burn.
ahahahaha
-ruffles morgan's hair

whilst i was there i watched some under 17 boys doubles pair
ZAI!
from malaysia
ZAI!!!!
but i think my two idols play more style
-stares at bay

watched already then played more tai dee
played with qiao morgan and pris
ended up partnering pris play
so stupid
morgan left everything to qiao la
ahahaha
CUTEEEEEE!

left at around 1030
was at the bus stop
when qiao's father picked me and pris up
he send us home
so nice

trng tmr so early
i can forget about being on time
-sulks

and bay
don't say i never mention you on my blogg
put it nice and big
so be HONOURED!
-grins




my falling ; 1:17 AM

Sunday, December 19, 2004

i walk this empty street
on the boulevard of broken dreams
when the city sleeps
and i'm the only one and i walk alone
i walk alone, i walk alone
i walk alone and i walk up



my falling ; 1:44 AM

Saturday, December 18, 2004

i walk alone

youth international is so eating up all my money
mainly used for cabbing from place to place
for example today,
cabbed from yck mrt station to sbh
then sbh to church
then church back to sbh
(for the ignorant few, sbh stands for singapore badminton association

anyhow
today

went orchard mrt to collect my wallet
(i dropped it in between the gap between the mrt and the platform)

then trained back to yck to meet winnie
cabbed down to my house and she had lunch at my place
left the house at around 1210
bused down to yck mrt station
and realising i was going to be late
we cabbed down to sbh

partner chew play
alright la
won 15-3 15-1

stayed to watch the others play
winnie and carolynn's doubles play was so exciting
i got pissed off at the indo supporters
damn freaking irritating la!
rahhh
this kinda people, shld not be alive

watched rahh and jean play
they were actually pretty good!
-beams

played cards with some of snbt-ers and left at around 545?
cabbed down to church
was late by 10 minutes

after mass,
cabbed back to sbh
(well, money is for spending right?)

played cards with weilong qiao and morgan
after that got morgan to treat me fried rice
morgan is cute cute cute!
-beams
-ruffles morgan's hair

watched and watched and watched somemore
left at 1045?
the bus ride was AMAZINGLY long

oh yes,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY NIC !
2 days belated
love loads bestie!
-hugs real tight



my falling ; 11:55 PM

Thursday, December 16, 2004

guestbook replies

clarissa
I'M SEEING YOU LATER!
-beams

nic !
for the houses thing
i don't think so, since aiwei's born in december
but she's blue like me
and i'm an april baby
anyhow.
what do you want me to do for you anyway?
okkk..
i'm home usually on thursdays
yeahh
thursdays
love lots dear!







my falling ; 10:44 AM

Wednesday, December 15, 2004

sometimes i run

yesterday;15 december
today was a fun fun fun fun fun day!
hehhhh

trng was FUN!
hehhhhhh
went there and the hall was in a MESS
they were painting the hall
and my god la!
look so horrible
and we could only use the last 3 courts

anyhow
after warm up
did that stupid thingy
was so funny
esp chew
my god, she is so full of shit

started playing singles
played jean first
abit 10-13 la
screwed up majorly
alot alot of out balls would have been very nice double shots
pek chek know!

then played sheng
lost.
but nevermind la
i don't care

then played bel
won dno what's the score

chew super zai la!
abit won everyone!
ahahaha
chew rocks!
:)))))

after everyone played finished,
jiao lian talked to all of us
yupppp

then went down to the gym
I LOST 0.5 KG!
go nessa! go nessa! go nessa!

weights was alright
then run staircase
so stupid
cos jiao lian chased after us
then make alot of noise
then the science lab attendent thought we were fighting?!
so funny

i declare pris STUPID!
she's so freaking gullible know!
i cannot take it!

anyhow pris,
this is the REAL story

me chew sheng jean yannyee and bel bused down to bel's house
bel ordered pizza and when we reached her house
we started playing pool
it was actually SUPER fun?
i can actually hit something
and bel is so full of shit
-glares at bel
stupid bel
too much know

sheng got bored so she went to watch the best bet with chew
so funny
the show is full of shit la

played pool quite alot
then bel's father fetch us to i dno where also
and we took cab down to sbh

what we told pris
(i can't believe she believe)

we went to woodlands, causeway point
and then we took i can't rmbr
996 or 966 down to east coast
we wanted to stop at some bus stop and take another bus down to sbh
but we got lost
and we started walking along east coast there
and finally found a cab
SHE BELIEVED THIS!
can you believe that?!

oh mann
she is STUPID!

anyhow
watched xian bin play my cousin
so interesting
hehhhh
my cousin lost though oh well

the games today quite sian la
not going down tmr
like hardly anyone i know so what's the point

hmmmmmm
anyhow
cabbed back with pris
the cab uncle is horrible
cab fare abit 13.70 la
what the hell
oh well

today
CRIS!
i am so immensely sorry!
i tell you, waking up at 7 o clock is REALLY hard
i really wanted to call you
but well..
i overslept?
I AM SO SORRY!
don't get angry ok?
i feel so bad now
-bites lower lip

lua's coming over later
yay!!

i needa call ash
-frowns






my falling ; 10:57 PM

Tuesday, December 14, 2004

i'm gonna soak up the sun

am eating grapes now
i love grapes, but only seedless ones
hehhhh

met pris after piano at yck interchange
took 70 down to sbh
the bus ride was amazingly long
it was all i could do to not puke

reached and watched my cousin ranen playing
met winnie and then christine came by
went lunch with cris pris and tiong
then back to the hall again
most of the games were alright la
not say VERY exciting.
i agree with yannyee
____ taste is so shitified

left at around 530 to meet my mom
took bus 7 down to town
I DIDN'T GET LOST!
hehhhh

walked around tangs with my mom
it's alright la
but got quite sleepy so came back home

tmr going sbh again after trng
i think.
should be la
yunnie playing at430 i think
yuppp
must go down support my senior
hehhh

my cousin's playing tmr too
but another one
i didn't even know he was playing la!
under 15 some more
so interesting
hehhh

nic
it's a badminton competition la!
haiyo!
anyhow.
please tell me what time you touch down on the 22
maybe i can go see you or something like that
YAYY!
love my bestie tons and tons and tons!

eight more days till NIC'S coming back!
-BEAMS!










my falling ; 9:10 PM

i'm tired of rumours starting

piano later
then meeting pris at yck mrt station
down to sbh to watch youth international
-shrugs

am listening to white houses by vanessa carlton
did anybody watch the video
her fingers are SOO nice!
nice long and skinny
and the way she plays the piano is SOO cool
vanessa carlton is my new idol!
and jia would go a singer does not an idol make

anyhow
have been struggling with pages 3 and 4 of my piano exam piece
which is weird
since it's just a modificatin of the first 2 pages
oh well, practice makes perfect

slept at 3 plus yesterday
wanted to finish return of the king
which i did!
-beams
so therefore i can finally say
I HAVE FINISHED THE LOTR TRILOGY!
word by word, letter by letter, everything!
i am DONE!
the best part?
i actually understand it!
-big grin

i dno how come i could just wake up at around 9 this morning
6 hours of sleep
plenty no?

hohum
shall go get ready for piano then




my falling ; 10:07 AM

Monday, December 13, 2004

TODAY WAS A BAD DAY

trng in the morning
woke up at like 940 la
hurried to get ready
and CHIONG outta the house
cabbed to school

during warm up
snapped at yannyee
I'M SORRY
trng was rather slack
cos jiao lian disappeared
dno where he go also

we did sit ups back flaps and push ups for physical
then jiao lian came in
in a suit la!
so stylo milo know!

anyhow
down to the canteen after that
suppose to have lunch
but didn't feel like it
so just had apple aloe vera
did some of my maths holiday hmwk
whao. i tell you
i HATEEEE maths man
so full of shit

at about 4, pris and winnie came my house
full of shit know those two
i cannot take it
play war in my room
some more against me!
2 against 1 not fair!
SO IMMATURE!
not like me
just sit there and endured their throws
ahaha
no la
i also throw back
so full of shit

pris was trying to read my diary
so KAYPO KNOW!
go and die la
have to bring my diary down to the toilet when i went to bathe
scared she read

anyhow
i'm super fraking pissed at my mom
go and die stupid head
-slaps
what the heck is wrong with her
-screams

i dno la
today's a bad day
cos i was generally in a bad mood
oh wells
tmr will be better
i think.
i hope.








my falling ; 7:29 PM

just off the phone with cris
-nods

i have yet to receive a reply from a CERTAIN SOMEBODY
-glares
nessa's growing impatient
hehhh
no la. it's alright
i suppose...
cos if i was to rush you
it'll be too short for my liking
-sulks

hohummm
it's 1220, 13 december 2004
and i just thought of something.
is nothing considered something?
and if it is considered something
it shouldn't be called nothing
and i have no idea what the hell i'm talking about!

you know.
somethings, i think i think too much
and at other times.
i think too little
and when i'm in the think too little state, i become very slow
-stares at cris
maybe cos i think too little that's why i'm slow in that area
so i should start thinking more
but that also won't work
cos if i think too much
i start talking crap
which is what i'm doing now
WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?!
-slaps
shut up nessa, shut up


some quick guestbook replies

NIC !
i'm almost definately home everyday after 9?
yeahh
but maybe not this week
since i want to go watch youth international
i'll call you whenever i'm free ok?
and sure, i'll do anything i can
love my bestie tons!

pris
WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?!
what still kuey
what still smashes
i don't understand a thing
but nevermind
anyhow, the she is the person you told morgan we were pissed off at?
i'm still puzzled as to how come she doesn't know
HOW THICK CAN YOU GET?!
geeez!


i shall go sleep now
-yawns





my falling ; 12:52 AM

Sunday, December 12, 2004

this girl wants to rock with you

i cannot believe it
i really really cannot believe it
HOW THICK CAN ANYONE GET?!
honestly
how can ANYONE be so totally CLUELESS?!
if others around her realise it
HOW COME SHE DOESNT?!
URGHHH
i tell you, this kind of people shouldn't be alive
-roars

anyhow
going down to ntuc later
my mom insisted i go too
i really don't want to since i don't see the point in it
but oh well.
i suppose i could take advantage of the situation and get a few things
but honestly, what?
i mean, i'm on a no chocolate no chips no coke diet currently
which i seriously doubt i can carry through
and in ntuc, what else can i get?
campbell soup?
-raise hands in defeat
maybe i'll do what my brother does
stay at starbucks till my mom calls
yeahhh
and i can eat their cheesecake again!
YAY!
i loveee starbuck's oreo cheesecake
it literally melts in your mouth
and it's just so heavenly la
not to mention expensive as well
FIVE DOLLARS AND FIFTY CENTS for one slice
-shakes head
moneymoneymoney

jia
i'm extremely offended by your remark that i'm uninterested in lotr
i would like to say i am VERY interested in lotr
but more on the movies than the books
the books are alittle too.. shall i say.. draggy?
anyhow
it's alright la
there's no need to feel sorry
I UNDERSTAND
have fun during your lotr trilogy viewing on friday!
-beams




my falling ; 2:40 PM

Saturday, December 11, 2004

disorganized mess

the reason for the above title
-points
is very simple
i mean it LITERALLY
i swear, i have never met a more disorganized person than myself
i mean, just take a look at the state of my room
heck, even with my maid helping me pack EVERYDAY
it's still in this HUGE mess
i think it's cos i have too many things
i REALLY need to do some mass clearing of things soon

i have this WHOLE BIG CHUNK of holiday hmwk to complete
mainly science maths and chinese
science is alright
but maths and CHINESE?!
i swear my school is sadistic
not to mention colour blind
honestly, have you seen my school?
it's this big mess of colours
and it's just looks WEIRD
i'm just thankful i'm not a primary one kid
having to tolerate it for 10 more years
it's only 2 more years for me!

what?!?!?
only TWO more years?
that's just plain SAD!
i'm gna miss st nicks when i leave
i'm sooo gna miss it
and i'll miss snbt most
it's like my second family or something
snbt rocks and death to anyone who contradicts me
-glares

i just finished watching tarzan on disney
it's so.. sweet
yeahhhh. sweet
ok. i like it also cos jane has this nice snooty british accent
and it's so harrypotterish and you know.
links links links?
ok. nevermind
i'm always talking crap
-slaps

sat with lua during mass today
she was being lame
(as usual)
i mean, STEALING THE CHRISTMAS TREE ORNAMENTS?!
which moron steals christmas tree ornaments?!
and she thought some guy i was talking about was up on the stained glass
i mean,
COME ON!
-wacks lua on the head
no one's THAT stupid
riight?
okkk..
just kidding ahh
don't get angry ok?
no angry ahh!
and i'm SOO not mistreating your lotr books
look at them
they are in PERFECT condition
even better condition than my dan brown books
which incidentally
are in the worst condition any thing can get in
it's nerve wrecking i swear
-roars
death on a pinecone (don't ask) the person who did that to them

i bet lua is reading this and rolling on the floor
i can practically hear her laughter in my head
OH MY GOD!
i'm hearing things
-glances around

i really needa start my christmas shopping soon
actually i only have to get two thing
christmas cards and that thing
-stares at pris
we have to hurry get the cards yeahhh?
yeahhhh
pick a date and we'll go kino together yeahh?
yuppp
-nods

i need quite alot of people's addresses
i shall now go make a list
so i won't forget anybody
yes and looking at the clock
it tells me it's 130 in the morning
so why am i still so on?
right. now i rmbr
i've gone mental
-nods and bangs head on the wall






my falling ; 10:01 PM

all who wander are not lost

WTH?!
jia is currently the proud owner of lotr;ROTK the extended dvd version
(for the ignorant few, it's the last instalment in the lotr trilogy)
I WANT I WANT!
but it's alright la.
my brother should be getting it too
yayyy
then i can finally laugh (again) at that stupid tiara thingy legolas was wearing
which is also full proof that is a certified GAY
MWAHAHAHAHAHA
not to mention, it's the FINAL instalment of the lotr trilogy
meaning that it's the best one of them all
meaning that it's an absolute must see
and the battle scenes are absolutely FABULOUS
the ghost army is absolutely way cool la
and again i'm blabbering nonsense
-slaps

anyhow
i have finished fellowship of the ring
and i am proud to say i did it page by page
word by word
letter by letter
and i'm DONE!
i'm feeling proud of myself!
-beams

i'm about 45 page into two towers
i'm feeling awfully slow cos normally i don't read this slow
hmmmm
blame that tolkien for being so freaking detailed

anyhow
i woke up LATEEE today
i wouldn't have woke up even if it wasn't for my brother
came bursting into my room at 1230
and commanded me to get out of bed
i did
then when he went to bathe
i crawled back in and started on two towers
my brother is SOOO cute
i love my brother TONS!

i'm bored
the piano managed to keep me contend for about 1 hour?
and the 2 other alternatives i can think of now to keep my boredem at bay
are doing my maths holiday hmwk or reading two towers
i pick two towers
LATER!-waves





my falling ; 2:02 PM

Friday, December 10, 2004

confusion sets in

UHHHH
i just lost a nice and long blog entry
what the hell
screw this lousy computer
-sulks

anyhow
summing up my doings for yesterday
pris morning call me
met her at yck
bused to tampines sport hall
got pissed
left
met cris
watch christmas with the kranks
then got ash's present
yeah
more or less

today
trng in the morning
after warm up str away went down to the gym la
did weights and nessa lim (track one)
was so amazed by our leg thingy
we can do 7,8,9,10
they do like 2,3,4
hehhh
so amusing

ran 7 rounds
not bad
in the hot AFTERNOON SUN!
jiao lian is strange

went back up to hall
played doubles all the way
was alright la
had a little talk with jiao lian after that
was alright la

lunch with pris manda and sheng
got freaked out by some crazy person
my heart just went BOOM!
so scary!

anyhow
macs with them too
and started on my holiday homework
manda tried doing my chem one
failed
then sheng and pris tried
suceed
ahahaha
i was doing maths
then after 3 questions gave up and switch to physics
physics totally rock my socks la!
woo hoo!
:)))

sheng went for... ermm.. LESSON
-stares at sheng
so me pris and manda started talking
talked about quite alot of things
manda left after awhile
then my and pris started amusing ourselves
so funny
laughed like crazy la

home

mom left for dno what also
so now it's just me and my maid
i want call ash!
yeahh
anyhow

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ASHnagohruomin!
i love my bestie tons and tons
YOU'RE 14!!!
-beams





my falling ; 8:13 PM

Thursday, December 09, 2004

SNBT !

BEKAH; :)
QIAO; you know i know ;)
YUHUI; :)
RACH; granddaughter
GER; :)
PRIS; darling/niece
MANDA; daughter
RAHH; daughter
SHENG; daughter
JEAN; niece
JEN; niece
BEE; niece
CHEW; darling partner`cousin
BEL; cousin
CAROL; :)
TIONG; sistahh
YANN; ah bu/mother
DANIA; auntie
YUNNIE; auntie`captain
YUPEI; captain
PAMELA; grandaunt
SHUWEN; :)
TRICIA; :)
INGRID; shifu
PEI XUAN; :)
ERICA; grandmother

i love snbt so very very much
cos you were my strength when i was weak
you were my voice when i couldn't speak
you were my eyes when i couldn't see
you saw the best there was in me
lifted me up when i couldn't reach
you gave me faith 'coz you believed
i'm everything i am
because you loved me









my falling ; 1:53 AM

Wednesday, December 08, 2004

emotions
its just emotions, taking me over
caught up in sorrow, lost in the song
and if you will come back
come home to me darlin
dont you know theres nobody left in this world to hold me tight
nobody left in this world to kiss goodnight


i'm IN LOVE with this song
don't you love it too?
hehhhhhh.
it's so sweet and sad.
and yet so... i dno.
i just like it la
-beams




my falling ; 10:44 PM

BULLSHIT !

nessa's on high
i think it's cos i just ate pineapple?
no clue as to what's the link
but, never mind

anyhow
trng as usual in the morning
was actually early
can you imagine that?
i was EARLY
even though i only crawled outta bed at 9?
hurry bathed and cabbed to school
and was EARLY!
found bel and pris mending boxes
so amusing

dno what's up with me today
so super slow and i had absolutely no strength?
was feeling pek chek and stuff

went down to the gym later
gg good mood today or something
he showed mercy and we didn't have to run!
YAY!!

we were teaching sun jiao lian english
SOOOO funny la
apparently pris sheng tiong and carolynn were teaching him to say
i am so seductive
but failed la, cos too long
damn funny la
in the end, we just taught him how to say i am so sexy
was soooo freaking funny

went back to the hall and got pris pissed off
SORRY !!!
was playing baseball with some lousy bat and some red ball
damn funny

went up to macs after the rain stopped
hung around for awhile then went to the nearby hawker center to eat lunch with rahh
pris and sheng came later
got freaked out 2 times by some crazy old men
damn scary.
they just stand next to our table
and i'm just shuddering away la

anyhow
went back to macs and stoned with rahh
later everyone came back
that inclues jean chew yannyee manda rahh sheng and me la
started playing poker
or at least, tried to
yannyee was teaching
then got sian and starting playing black jack
got even more sian and started playing BULLSHIT!
-stares at jean
BULLSHIT!
super fun

after a while.
sheng left so left the six of us
then we started playing dai tee (?)
i LOVEEEE that game
played for quite long
then yannyee and pris came my house
cabbed back cos i was too lazy to take bus

came online str
and yannyee started blogging
we took turns coming online la
was alright
played speed with my ah bu
obviously I WON!
ahahaha
evil evil nessa

saw the youth internation lineup
me and chew alright la
i THINKKK can get into second round
am not playing any seeded players till quarters
(that is if we can get in la)
pris got bye into second round la
what rubbish?
NOT FAIR!
-sulks

anyhow
we started playing poker in my room
i lost with a total of 840?
yeahh
something like that
ahahaha
oh well.
poker's alright la
but i don't understand why do you need a POKER face to play poker ??
hmmmmm

yannyee's dad sent her and pris home
practised piano and i can finally play my czerny without stopping
which is (by my standards) WONDERFUL!

i shall go find some way to entertain myself now
even though my entertainer is online
he is being DAO and not saying hi to me
so in other words, he's being useless cos he's not entertaining me!
i shall be dao to. and not say hi.
ok, i never say hi to anyone on msn
-grins sheepishly
STILLLLL!
i have to call ash.

i'm going out with cris and ash tmr!!
YAYNESS!



my falling ; 10:29 PM

Tuesday, December 07, 2004

just emotions, taking me over

i'm re-reading lord of the rings
if you can consider what i did the last time reading
since i skimmed past every page
but honestly, besides jia and clarissa,
i have yet to find a person who actually read word for word
that J.R.R. Tolkien is so amazingly DETAILED
but i have made up my mind
i will read word for word this time
i will push myself to the limits
and understand every last thing tolkien is trying to tell me
i have read up to page 120
even read the "note on text", "foreword to the second edition" and "concerning hobits, and other matters"
(for those who dno, it's just all the prologue thingies before the actual story)

so far i have found it AMAZING
but still, far too detailed
oh well, i shall not argue with book critics of the highest standard like sunday times
and say it's a horrible book
which it isn't
it's a great one

woke up EARLY this morning
six am to be exact
i have positively no idea why
just suddenly woke up
and bon jovi's it's my life was playing on the radio
laid happily listening to it and starting prancing around my room in the dark
that, even by my standards, is NOT normal
no one goes on high at 6 in the morning

anyhow,
hopped (literally) back into bed at about 8
then my stupid alarm clock woke me up at 820
bloody hell.
wanted to throw it to timbaktu and never see it again
but i nicely just switched it off
and promptly went back to bed

woke up much later
went down and either pris or lua called first
i can't rmbr
but i think it's pris
chatted for 2 minutes discussing what to do after my piano lesson

agreed to meet lua at the mrt station near her house
after piano and bring her letter
went to practise piano for abit and realised i was horriblely late for piano
grabbed my stuff changed and rushed outta the house
on the bus i realised i forgot lua's letter
OH THE HORROR!

piano was alright la
my czerny sucks and will forever suck

took the lift down with my teacher cos she wanted to go pick her son up from childcare
walked over to meet lua and i was late
it wasn't my fault!
my teacher let me out late!

anyhow
went to lua's house
hung around and lua's mother didn't let her come my house!
HOW SAD IT THAT?!
so i came back lor
so sad right?
SO SAD!!!

came back pris called
she agreed to come over
in the meantime i watched finding nemo while eating lunch
nearly choked and killed myself
that dory is SOO amusing
laughed like some crazy coconut
my maid was looking at me funny
hehhhh

called mom
she got pissed at me
was about piano
heck she's always on me about piano
-shrugs

pris came back
we came online
watch her play that BORING game
and then went down to bullion park
got some things
and came back
watched tv and there was fear factor on
the twins edition
niceeee!

pris left at 530?
came back after sending her to the bus stop
then ran upstairs to read lotr
mom called me down for dinner
then after dinner went with my maid for her health checkup
was lost to the world as i was far too engrossed in my lotr
gave the cashier 2 bucks instead of 50
when she asked for the payment
(it was 20 bucks for people who want to know)

i'm shagged for some reason
did nothing strenuous today
so i'm kinda puzzled
must be the battle with my mom
she went alittle nuts today
probably mood swing

i dno la.
i realise whenever we quarrel
somehow badminton and piano are always brought into the picture
i have been trying DESPERATELY to keep them far far away
but it never works
she has this crazy plot to make me choose between badminton and piano
if i don't put your heart and soul into my piano practise
this really gets on my nerves
because it sounds as if i don't care about piano
which I DO!
and she's making me out to be some crazy money burning machine
(she insists she's wasting her money paying for my piano lessons)
WHAT IS THAT SUPPOSE TO MEAN?!
that i'm some lunatic trying to squeeze every last cent outta her?!
RAHHHH!

ok. nevermind
i will just keep my cool
off to call cris


The Lord Of The Rings
Three Rings for the Elven-kings under the sky,
Seven for the Dwarf-lords in their halls of stone,
Nine for Mortal Men doomed to die,
One for the Dark Lord on his dark throne
In the Land of Mordor where the Shadows lie.
One ring to rule them all, One Ring to find them,
One Ring to bring them all and in the darkness bind them
In the Land of Mordor where the Shadows lie.







my falling ; 9:57 PM

Monday, December 06, 2004

am i the only one experiencing muscle ache
or is the whole snbt feeling the way i do?
-rubs shoulders and thighs

back not long from my aunt's place
had dinner there
my cousins are SOOO amusing

trng in the morning
as usual
barely crawled outta bed on time
had to cab to school
maybe trng in the morning is not such a good thing after all

anyhow
DANIA AND YUNHUA CAME FOR TRNG!
woo hoo!
like some reunion dinner like that
everybody was there cept jen. and some of the pri sixes

oh yes.
public announcement
nessa is saying sorry to chew for being such a meanie today
SORRY!
please don't get angry
i really am sorry.
-bites lower lip
SORRY!!!

the last bit was FUN!
ahaha

then.
had badminton meeting
agreed on alot of things
like for example
our hall ahhhh.
one word can describe it PERFECTLY
HOPELESS!

lunch at four?
ahaha
at macs there
i don't really know what dania yannyee and yunhua were talking about
but i can roughly guess
chill dania! i love my auntie tons and kilograms no matter what!

cabbed back home with rahh and pris
asked the cab uncle to wait
while i went in to get somethings
the cab uncle is HORRIGIBLE LA!
wait also end up I pay
you make noise for what?
SHEEEEEEEESH!

cabbed down to yck mrt station
took 72 down to tampines interchange
walked over to tampines sports hall
got our rackets strung
in the meantime
went walking around the hall
found the listings for ashaway cup
barely know anybody la!
went up and got bubble tea
then down again to collect our rackets

walked back to the interchange
and took 23 down to my aunt's place

dinner was fine
and one of my cousins is a badminton crazy enthust.
was droning on and on about youth international
was generally amused
but it got alittle irritating after awhile

my uncle sent me and my mom home
i'm like aching everywhere
WHY? why is that so?
-groans

all i want to do now is to flop down on my bed and sleep
but i know i won't be able to
and why is that so?
because my stupid body is SUPER tired
but my lousy mind/soul/brain is still running high
heck. if i could i would be drowning 42095784 sleeping pills now
i have to call ash!
okkk.
shall do that now

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
sorry, but i was EXTREMELY amused by a particular person's msn nick
i want to die of laughter now.
i HAVEEEEEE to tell ash




my falling ; 9:17 PM

Sunday, December 05, 2004

i love pris and yannyee alot alot!
they totally made my day
-big grin
:))

called pris at 1 plus
after just waking up
ask her come my house cos my mom was making dumplings?
she called yannyee and they both agreed to come

was half way practising piano
then mom called me go out to meet her friend
did that and met pris and yannyee on the way
fetch my mom's friend home
and they came by after getting something from the condo

didn't want them to go my room cos it was SOOOO messy
but they rushed in anyway
this kinda people
TSKTSK!
-shake head
but thank god my maid cleared my room up for me already
so wasn't so bad

me and pris tumbled around
(literally. like small little kids)
while yannyee listened to CLASSICAL MUSIC

then came online
and helped yannyee do her blogskin

then went down to watch some show
and then at around 530
mom called us to do dumpling
we all failure at doing the dno what fold one la
ahaha

pris and yannyee left at 7?
around there
yupp
came home and baked BROWNIES!
-BEEEEEG GRIN
:))))

chocolate
the one thing i CANNOT live without




my falling ; 11:10 PM

multiple posts
-shakes head

am 3/4 through a married woman
it's good
but i should really stop trying to force myself to complete a book like that at one go
it gives me really bad headaches
but i really wanted to finish it
-rubs temples
i don't need this headache right now!
PANADOL!
i'm becoming dependant on this little pill
damnnnn

lately,
i've been thinking too much
hmmmmm
not good.
i just needa chill
relax and take deep breathes
everything will sort itself out

ok.
i know this is a BIG change of subject
but am i the only hungry one here?
-groans
i hate being hungry at this time
i can't get anything to eat except junk food
UNHEALTHY food
meaning, instead of losing the 2 kg i want to
i would be gaining the 52694265048 kg that i don't want to

i can practically see cris's unbelieving face already
-mimicks cris
YOU ARE NOT FAT! I AM!

yeahyeah.
outta point bestie!
i never said i was fat
i just don't like my weight
blahh
42 kg sounds so much better
say it out loud
forty-two
doesn't it have a nice ring to it?
better than my... horrible weight now

found out that actually quite alot of people i know have blogs?
ahaha.
i just didn't know they did

anyhow
i have to relink pamela
and link dania
which at the same time
i should relink yongs.
take away yannyee's link
am considering taking away xian bin's link since that moron NEVER blogs
-HINTS!




my falling ; 1:16 AM

Saturday, December 04, 2004

subtle hints

am skimming through a book i found in my brother's room
called a married woman
seems interesting enough
i like it, esp the first paragraph
think ash would like it too
hehhhh

anyhow.
i'm bored
hmmmm...
think nessa. what to do
i know!
i shall call someone
probably either be ash or cris
VERY much likely cris
since i called ash 45 mins ago and she wasn't home
ok. blabbing nonsense again
-slaps

all i want is to hold you tight, treat you right;
tell me cos i need to know



my falling ; 9:28 PM

the situation got heavy

did i ever mention washing my brother's car with him is SUPER amusing?
well, it is

my brother and sis in law came by for lunch today
and my brother insisted i wash his car with him
was whining like my dog
but did it in the end
was actually very fun!
ahahaha
got abit wet, but heck
was laughing and laughing
and he kept calling me a moron
FINE LA!

church in an hour's time
i can HARDLY wait
-note the scarsm
i just found out this morning
i'm doing offering
got the shock of my life
i shall call lua soon
see if she's coming for mass today
-prays and crosses fingers
yes she will i know she will she will be nice and come today
i hope

off to bathe now
the horrors of doing the OFFERING later awaits me


my falling ; 3:52 PM

Friday, December 03, 2004

here's your papers, baby you are dismissed

trng in the morning
usual, typical, almost routine

amk central for lunch with
jean pris chew yannyee carolynn bee manda sheng
got alittle pissed but now i'm chill
me and manda went to the food court for lunch
the rest to long johns

after eating
me and manda went back to long johns to meet the rest
talked and talked
got very amused

then bee's house to watch spore idol
emotions ran super high
esp mine
then. i guess, i blew it
damn, i should really learn to keep my mouth shut
but at least i learnt something new today
and it was about someone there
and it wasn't good
i guess i knew it a long time ago already
but i just didn't want to admit it
damn, i dno what i'm saying
-slaps

anyhow
i said my sorry-s
and i guess i'm just simply too implusive
next time, i'll just shut up
yuppp

reached bee's house
watch jean's tape of spore idol
then at around 6 we started watching america's next top model (on tape)
watched half way and woke yannyee up
then started talking
as in, really talk la
me jean pris chew yannyee bee and sheng
talked about the team and stuff
talked and talked and talked

at around 8
cabbed back with pris
mom nearly chopped me up throw me in the blender and feed me to the dogs
so scary right?
oh well
nagged abit then i went to bathe
came out and practise piano
CRAMPS

i no appetite for dinner man
dno good or bad
good cos can lose weight
bad cos i have to eat something
ANOREXIC! (i don't think i spelt that right)

I WANT TO CALL CRIS
but my mom's on the phone
DAMN

nessa's very low now
MOTHER?!
GET OFF THE BLOODY PHONE!-roars




my falling ; 9:35 PM

Thursday, December 02, 2004

urgh
painnnn
-clutches

-stares at pris
YOUR PINK PILL IS USELESS!
but thanks anyway
love tons babe!
had a GREAT time being lame today
you practically raped me with my beach ball la!
what the hell
aim also dno how to aim
THE RACKET MY DEAR!
not my chest!
tsktsk

anyhow
had a GREAT time with pris today
our cookies turned out...
ermmmm..
65% la!
so my expectation are low.
(NOTHEYARENOT!)
but they turned out not bad what!

was suppose to go marist today
that is.. until my mom's mood took a turn for the worst
argh. even she gets mood swings
-rolls eyes
now she had forbidden me to use the phone till tmr
SHEESH!
insisted it was too late
WHY DOES SHE EVEN BOTHER?!
RAHHH

cris's leaving for canada on the
shit i forgot.
but i know she's coming back on the 31!!
hehhhh

guestbook replies

cris!
BESTIEEEEEEEEE
ilovemybestiealotalotalot!
yayyy!
sorry bout my crazy rantings just now
-coughs
can you keep up, baby boy, make me lose my breath
addiction. a growing addiction
-giggles
love tons and kilograms babe!

winnie;SISTAHH!
how's my darling sis today?
ahahaha.
miss you tons!
hurry get well soon yeahh?
then we can crap during trngs again!
yeahhh!
love dearie alot alot alot!

milady clarissa
i have received your long awaited letter
great was my joya nd pleasure
the bath house is indeed a delighful idea
i suggest we hurry fix a date
i have yet to reply your letter
but i will soon
i am terriblely busy you see
expect my pigeon by i think tuesday?
yes, please make sure your cook doesn't cook my darling pigeon
fat as it is, it's extremely dear to me you see
love darling!

jinan;the girl that used to sit behind me;barbie lover
i'm sorry yeahh?
i really don't think i can make it
but we can fix some other date right?
yesyes, i love my (pui pui pui!) barbie lover tons!
:)))

NIC!
BESTIEEEEEEEEEEE
i'm missing you like some rotten old maid
if you don't hurry come back to visit,
i'm gna just sit here, grow old, grow mold, grow white hair, die and rot!
are you even coming back?
YOU ABSOLUTELY HAVE TOO!
you me cris and ash have YET to take a neoprint tgt
help me somehow persuade ash to lehh
that woman thinks they are a waste of time
SHEESH
anyhow
ilovemybestiealotalotalot!







my falling ; 11:53 PM

make me lose my breath

still sore.
i meant that literally.
as in, my body's aching.
i really need to rethink my stretching methods
hmmmmmm

yesterday
trng was alright la
save the last part
-stares at jean
you can do one, i can do the other one
WE'RE QUITS!
haha.

had lunch in school
then pris came over
watched poa together
for pris's failing memory
POA stands for prisoner of azkaban

it was good!
ahahaha
i love daniel radcliffe
there were so many nice closed up shots of him
and i was just SWOONING like some moron
he is the very definition of HOT
(nic and ash definately do not agree, but why do i even care?)

i missed the first bit
cos i went to bathe
then went to meet chew at amk interchange tgt
reached there late
was suppose to be there at 6 but was 10 minutes late?
pris took 86 home

chew was relating her desperate attempt to contact me
so funny

reached marist at around 655?
found dania in the toilet
awwww!
I LOVE DANIA ALOT ALOT ALOT!
don't cry la
i bolded and caps your name lehh!

anyhow
was feeling kinda sad that none of the sec ones were there
so quiet
:/

played leonard and po kiat
first game was crap
second game was better
much much better
but still lost anyway
oh well.
we weren't meant to win anyway

hung around alittle bit
then umpired jiao lian weiyang and sheng kai i-dno-how-to-spell-his-name match
it was rather fun
ahahaha
chew was rooting for jiao lian's side
i was rooting for sheng kai's side
then whenever sheng kai or his partner falls down
i would be quietly chanting "get up get up, come on come on!"
hehhh.
i am so bias. hehhh

anyhow
after that, kept score for dania and xian bin playing
what? hei bai pei?
ahaha
so amusing

then got yunhua to ask her mom to send me to the bus stop
we sat outside the hall waiting for her mom to come
didn't dare go down cos we were too freaked
i really don't like marist at night

i was whining to her about my terrible plight
cos i had to go home alone
chew's dad picked her up
and my stupid brother never picked up his phone
SHEESH
so sad right?

anyhow
got the ride to the bus stop
and i was getting quite freaked
stupid cab uncles didn't stop at all!
began wondering if i looked like a ghost or something
since the crematorium was just opposite me
finally some nice uncle stopped
reached home at around 945?
yeahhh
showered and watch spore idol
TAUFIK WON!
YESYESYES!

i'm off to watch harry potter now (the first one)
and i am NOT dao!!!!















my falling ; 11:26 AM

Wednesday, December 01, 2004

LUA!
evil evil evil!
you.. you lousy pineapple!
evil evil evil!!!
and I wouldn't mind going to a hobbit's house
hello? lotr fan here?!
wait, aren't you a lotr fan too?
no, you're a LEGOLAS fan.
RIIIGHT
now i rmbr
just cos i put up less resistance doesn't mean my taller friend won't help me right?
besides if you're so thick to rob someone,
surely you so thick, you'll take forever to figure that a small person puts up less resistance
riiight?
sorry, i'm confusing myself
less air pressure
use being. less brain damage?
I AM NOT MISSING!!!
only a small amount of short people can play netball and basketball well
i do not fall into that category (?)



anyhow
me and chew SOMEHOW managed to get into family cup finals
i'm still trying to figure out how
chew was kinda upset
(actually so was i)
heck, we're missing spore idol, we have to be at marist till 10 plus
and i would probably be home at like what?
1130?

SHEEEEEEEEESH!

we should have lost to derek and wyman
then we wouldn't have to go back

trng later
OPPS!
look at the time!
meeting yannyee at erica's house there at 930
she's sending me to school
i have to run

did i mention?
i'm still aching everywhere
UHHHHHH




my falling ; 9:24 AM