Sunday, January 30, 2005

all over the place

AHHHHHH
what's that post doing there?!
-points down
RACHHHHH!
i do not i do not i do not!
DELETE DELETE DELETE
no, on second thought
i'll go modify it, not delete it

anyhow
church yesterday was pretty good
was down at about 3
for choir practise
mass was pretty good actually
father's sermon was unusually short
HEHHHH

after mass, dinner with amethyst, sabrina, melvin and corrinne?
ok, i dno how to spell her name
BLAHHH
but it shld be right

we were talking about ages
and sabrina told me when she first met me,
she thought i was SEC ONE!
OH MY GOD
OH THE HORROR!

do i look that immature
that YOUNG?!
blahhh
i needa grow up

stupid amethyst thought that too
i told her i thought she was a pri four at first
-sticks out tongue
WAHAHAHA

generally had a really good time
back to the ava room at about 745
(ok, not really, we were all late to be honest)

vocal training
oh my god my throat hurts
but it was fun
AHAHAHA
:)))

amethyst kept static-ing me (is that how you spell it?)

anyhow
left at about 10 plus?
chris told me alot of the choir people have bloggs
AND I FOUND ALL OF THEM!
i rock i rock i rock rock rock

ok whatever nessa
cath class later
meeting lua the pony first
WOO HOO!
today is gna be hella crappy
(((:

alright then
i shall go get ready

pris !
OPPPPPPS!!




my falling ; 9:13 AM

Saturday, January 29, 2005

ppl say my granddotter rach is PRETTY. i agree !
:)



my falling ; 9:58 PM

Friday, January 28, 2005

if you want a laugh, scroll down to rahh's play (:

lessons as usual

i think audrey is seriously cute
esp after what happened in the drama studio
-rolls on the floor laughing

trng after lessons
beginned quite alright
but i got really fcuked up
was seriously not myself
wasn't playing well and stuff

screwed up myself up majorly
and started crying
jiao lian was really nice about it
god i lovee jiao lian can
he's nice nice nice nice
((((:
thanks carol for the support
love you tonnes too
thanks manda for the hug
love babe!

got pissed off at OM chew
freaking unreasonable
but what the heck la

down to the track
and eight rounds
me pris jen and bee ran together
then we were jiayouing each other
and pris went "go go power ranger"
and i said i wna be pink ranger
so bee is blue ranger
jen is green ranger
and pris is white
hehhhh

anyhow
shoutouts and guestbook replies

JIA !
you topped my list
aren't you proud?
i'm sorry la
i know you'll forgive me right?
love you tonnes dear!

LUA !
sweetheart, i miss you like hell!
MAN!
you can always call me on my phone dear!
ahahahaha
why is jia dao-ing you?
JIA?!?!?!?!
anyhow, love you like hell dear!

PRETTY YUNNIE !
buddy!!!!
ahahaha
yes lorhh, you're like so pretty can?
pretty yunnie! pretty pretty yunnie!
(((:
i love ya too!

RACH BUBBLES DARLING !
GRAND GIRL GIRL!
ahahahaha
i included you
don't feel down anymore yeahh?
they all don't know a shit thing
and you rock you rock
you rock rock rock
love LOADS dear !

PRIS !
ya ya,
ya ya ya ya
-teddy bear like way
SING ALLELUIA TO THE LORD!
love sweets!
my froggy number oney
and my hua yu COOLey
and my choo-ey
and my lala-ey

BABY !
don't be pissed yeahh?
mama loves baby alot alot
-huggs tightly
but it's obvious you love me more
WAHAHAHA
LUNCH ON MONDAY DEAR!
love !





my falling ; 9:17 PM

Two Frogs Sharing a Pond
a production by:
saRAHH liu ; tau hui jui ; director

cast
frog number one : PRIScillachoo ; tau gua
frog number two : vaNESSAlim ; tau hui

audience
yunSHENG; TAUWEL (towel)
JEANnie ; tau ge


act one scene one
*note to all
the following scene is said in a mdm mah like voice

two frogs sharing a pond
pond not big enough
tadpole die
algae die
pond die
molly leong say" frogs look at the stove
the stove is looking at you
put SUUGER or your legs will fry (fly) away
where are the absentees?"
-distress frogs jump away

act one scene two
*note: the following scene is said in a lai pek ee like voice

frogs, the ecolomi (economy) very bad
all the oatters (otters) are dying
the swarms are no longer water-loh-ged (waterlogged)
-irritated frogs continue listening to their mp3s
-a concerned frog signs lai pek ee up for phonics lessons

*note to all
due to unforseen cirumstances like my ah bu wanting me and rahh to walk faster with her to macs,
i apologise that the play must stop here
((:








my falling ; 8:45 PM

Thursday, January 27, 2005

find my way back today

haven't blogged for quite some time
had no mood for the past few days

i think mr wong foo kit's voice is hypnotic
i'm always feeling sleepy in his class
and it's only when he starts talking
goshhh

lunched with snbt b div in the canteen
they started talking about how FERTILE my sister in law and brother were
three months isn't that long riight?
right right right?
right !

played against deyi today
i think clarissa and wanying are SERIOUSLY cuteeee!

played first doubles with chew
yunnie wanted us to hurry hurry play
cos she had dental appointment
so cute
haha


winnie !
i know you won't be reading this for quite sometime
but nevermind
you please please please take care
get well soon yeahh?
i'm missing you like hell can?
take care SISTAHH!
i love you tonnes and tonnes and tonnes
((:





my falling ; 5:10 PM

Sunday, January 23, 2005

i don't have an attitude problem
i just have a personality you cannot handle

go bug someone else




my falling ; 6:43 PM

girl; interrupted

mass yesterday was actually pretty alright
did i mention?
i'm in my church's youth choir
and before you make any sort of comment
i'm playing the ORGAN
not singing
especially not singing,
heck i'm like totally tone deaf can?

amethyst is such a sweetheart
HELLO AMETHYST!
(don't you just LOVEEE her name?)
-waves enthusiastically
i know you and your _____
-hack hack
don't think i don't know lorhh
don't try to deny it no more
ahahaha
love you loads babe!

jia !
when i say i feel your pain
i truly truly do
i hate insensitive guys who assume that girls arent half as good as them
and to tell it to your face
is just plain MEAN
screw him
screw screw screw him
love you still dear !








my falling ; 4:09 PM

Saturday, January 22, 2005

i know this might sound incrediblely random
but you know mugglenet's editorials?
they are AMAZING!
spent like the better part of my saturday,
just reading every last one of them
highly recommended
not to mention, the authors write amazingly well
it's just WOW!


my falling ; 3:13 PM

kelly clarkson; since you've been gone

here's the thing we started off friends
it was cool but it was all pretend
yeah yeah
since you've been gone

you dedicated you took the time
wasn't long till I called you mine
yeah
since you've been gone

and all you'd ever hear me say
is how i pictured me with you
that's all you'd ever hear me say

but since you've been gone
i can breathe for the first time
im so movin on
yeah yeah
thanks to you
now i get what i want
since you've been gone

how can I put it? you put me on
i even fell for that stupid love song
yeah yeah
since you've been gone

how come i never hear you say
i just wanna be with you
i guess you never felt that way

but since you've been gone
i can breathe for the first time
im so movin on
yeah yeah
thanks to you
now i get
i get what i want
since you've been gone

you had your chance you blew it
out of sight, out of mind
shut your mouth i just can't take it
again and again and again and again

since you've been gone
i can breathe for the first time
i'm so movin on
yeah yeah
thanks to you (thanks to you)
now i get
i get what i want
i can breathe for the first time
i'm so movin on
yeah yeah
thanks to you (thanks to you)
now i get (i get)
you should know (you should know)
that I get
i get what i want
since you've been gone
since you've been gone
since you've been gone




my falling ; 2:36 PM

broken this fragile thing now

first of all
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LUA LUA LUA!
love ya tonnes dear!
-hugs tightly

qiao wei, rachel and germaine crashed my house yesterday
qiao wei called me and asked for my address
then they suddenly just appeared at my door
what is this right?
some more abit 10 plus la
-shake head shake head

went over to ger's house
till about 1 plus?

crapped a hell lot at ger's house
i spilled things
THEY SPILLED NOTHING!
not fair not fair!

anyhow, they were very interested in my phone
what is this?
abit place bet ah, the three of you
but what the heck
i won ONE BUCK
wahahahahaha

i don't know why we ended up on the phone
with SOMEBODY
-stares hard the three of them

that SOMEBODY didn't spill anything we wanted to be spilled
what is this
but nevermind la

had lots and lots of fun
the three of them walked me back at around 1 plus?
yeahhh
came back and just flopped on the bed
couldn't sleep though
till about like 3 plus

woke up at around 9 plus
went for piano
i LOVEEEE my piano teacher
she's so funky monkey
stylo milo!
ahahahahaha
she rocks la!
(((:







my falling ; 1:22 PM

HAHA ! late at night last night, my lovelylovelylovely grandotters and qiao came to visit me at my house ! (: then went to ger's house. they had to walk me back at one ! im a meanmean person!

okay, im invading. ohwell. (:



my falling ; 11:55 AM

Friday, January 21, 2005

you make me wna scream

friendly at marist in the morning
doubles all the way
played daryl and weilong first
won
but i can't rmbr we played 2 or 3 sets

game was pretty good i'll have to say
hehhhh

then played wyman and derek
lost
wasn't really happy about that game
cos it was like they were attacking us none stop
and we didn't know what the heck to do other than just dang back?
and that's stupid playing

ok, i'll admit it
I WNA PLAY THEM AGAIN!
lose bu fu qi

last of all, played morgan and daryl
daryl enjoys hitting me
hahaha
won them 3 sets

lunched with pris rahh bee jean sheng at mos burger at amk central
winnie took bus down with us
we were all so lifeless
i have no idea why
but was low low low after trng
-sighhh

bused back

was so totally shagged
showered and just popped on the bed and fell asleep
that's the reason why i took forever to reply smses this afternoon
:D
sorry !

MANDA !
sweets, don't be so upset yahh?
everything would just get better
it will it will
and you're zai
you're freaking freaking zai
i can't take how zai you are
you're freaking fast (YOU ARE! don't contradict your mother!)
you're freaking power
you're freaking zai la!
so don't ever say you're anything less than that
love you tonnes daughter!
-huggs tightly

PRIS !
you were suppose to SIGN MY GUESTBOOK!
not sms me
ahahaha
but it's alright la
WHO IS IT?!
ok, why do i even want to know?
oh yahh, cos YOU DO AND I DON'T!
NOT FAIR!!!!
HURRRR
friends must share information right?
so tell me la!
your platonic friend wasn't the one who told you?
(actually, your platonic friend aint even platonic can? haha)
i don't believe!
and yes! we will go dhoby ghuat and get slippers together SOON!
love tonnes CHOO!


here i go,
scream my lungs out
and try to get to you
you are my only one
i let go
but there's just no one that gets me like you do
you are my only, my only one









my falling ; 9:48 PM

Thursday, January 20, 2005

YAY ! NESSALOVESME ! (:
YAY ! ILOVENESSA ! (:

im invading ! ohwell ! (:



my falling ; 11:41 PM

count the stars tonight

i generally enjoyed today
:))))

lessons were a total drag
couldn't take it during chem
and just pooped down on the table and fell asleep

met sistahh for lunch at one
had like tea for lunch
didn't feel hungry at all
got wedges in case i got hungry

reached yck sports hall around 1355?
warmed up, stroked, etc

played second doubles today
with chew
alright la

played anderson today by the way

bused back to school
met some xiao de while walking up street 13
they are all sieow la

met pris and got orange bowl to eat
sheng and pris are LIARS!
-glares
bad bad pris
bad bad daughter
-shakes finger

anyhow
walked down to bee's house
had FUN!
watched amazing race (the replay)
and then me sheng and pris started playing mahjong
for like 3 rounds
then cos we started watching a cinderella story
and was too engrossed
sorry bay !
-bites lower lip

bused back with pris
pris is EVIL!
the bus was so freaking bright can
you lousy-eyesight-please-go-get-specs person!
haha
and tell me WHO DOES _____ LIKE!
not fair how come you know i dno?!?!
i bet it's your PLATONIC friend right?
HAHA!

trng tmr at marist
NINE IN THE MORNING
what is this?!
HURRRRR

but at least the courts would be nice
and i would be TRAINING!
woo hoo!
(((:









my falling ; 9:15 PM

Tuesday, January 18, 2005

something wicked this way comes

am BEAT
heck, i don't even know what the hell i'm doing here
i should be doing my MATHS hmwk
and not blogging happily away here
screw this

went with pris to tampines sports hall to string racket after school
lunched with pris sheng and manda at macs first though
mr clement tan sat at the table next to us
and it was stupid
he think he very funny is it??

anyhow
bused down to tampines sports hall
had fun!

went to meet my mom at somerset mrt after that
went to some music store
AND SHE GOT ME THE HARRY POTTER AND THE POA MUSIC BOOK!
YEAHH MAN!

can't wait to get started
:)))

dinner at some place
and walked down to plaza sing
she settled some of her phone thingys
and i went around window shopping while waiting for her
plaza sing aint a good place to shop
but it's a niceee place to WINDOW SHOP
((((:

PRIS!
when we get bored yeahh?
(((:

i really should go do my maths hmwk now
but before that,

me to you

SISTAHH !
what's up dear?
you didn't tell me what happened
don't be upset yeahh?
i love my sistahh ever so much
-hugs tightly

CRIS !
yesyes
pink pills are my life
PINK PILL DRUG ADDICT!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
love babe!

NIC !
BESTIEEEE!
you wna pierce up there?
okkkkkk
i won't EVER wna pierce there
it's so pain and nice mehh?
hmmmmm
oh well, nevermind
ash got 2 on each side
hehhhh
i'll sms you my new number yeahh?
LOVE DEAR!

LUA !
oh man, now the days that i don't have trng
other than sat and sun,
i have competition
-bites lower lip
so how?
I NEEDA SEE YOU SOON!
i wna laugh at your crappiness again
-toes the floor
you chope me, i chope chope chope chope chope you back!
I MISS LUA!
alot alot alot
love sweets!

JIA !
you know what we should do
every weekend,
preferably sunday,
we crash either one of our houses
and bitch the day away
ahahahaha
that would be so fun!
and since i've GOT MY PHONE back
contacting me would be 2954526 times easier
love tonnes!

MANDA !
daughter!
you are full of crap
but i love you anyway
AND I LOVE YOUR MSN NICK!
-copies
LOVE TIONG NESSA (:
sweetheart, i love you too!
((:




my falling ; 9:35 PM

Monday, January 17, 2005

the show's over

my right knee really hurts
the result of over exerting myself during training
or at least that's what my mom says
i don't quite think so though

lessons were boring
REALLY boring
except for chem
in which 3justice was HIGHLY entertained by mr wong foo kit
-rolls on the floor laughing

saw our class tee shirt designs
I WANT BOTH!
niceeee!
3 JUSTICE rocks la can?

met jinan BABY for lunch after school
had mep lesson that was
BLAHHHHH

was doing some melody writing thing that i totally forgot to do
was hilarious
was just anyhow putting notes together
hehhhh

had a hella time drawing on jinan
ahahahaha
if jinan wasn't there,
i'll just die of bordem la!

went to the hall after mep
sat down and listened to jiao lian talk

then dinner with pris and rahh
was fun!
((((:

bused back with pris

it feels really good having my phone back
-BEAMS
i want my 6100 back!
-stares at brother
but nevermind la,
I WILL BE CONTENT WITH WHAT I HAVE

but i can still dream right?
(:



my falling ; 8:51 PM

Sunday, January 16, 2005

is it just me
or is ryan cabrera really really hot?
-giggles






my falling ; 1:02 PM

guestbook replies

cris !
GO BESTIE GO!
i feel your pain
hehhh
have alittle faith
((:
iloveyou!

rach; my BUBBLES!
bubbles!
no more jumping off tall buildings yeahh?
yesyes?
we shall have tea together again soon yes?
ahahahaha
iloveyou!

nic !
BESTIEEEE!
yeahh!
i got my third ear pierced
was too scared to do a fourth one
i want to do like 2 more
so i'll have five in total
ash has got 4 currently
i'm much much better!
(((((:
i miss you like heck too dear!
iloveyou!

the dashing brave knight lua
it's written in the stars
that someday we'll meet again
on the daffodil covered hills of scotland
where will we stand firm our guard
brave knights we are!
we shall go forth to slain the evil dragon
and save the fair damsel in distress
forward CHARGE!
iloveyou!




my falling ; 12:57 PM

shattered ]]

it's incredible how slackish i feel now
this weekend is GOOOOD
cept for the fact that i haven't done my mep hmwk yet
:/

and just for fun
you know things like HALF FLATS and HALF SHARPS actually exist?
but you can't do them on a piano

anyhow
am suppose to compose a how 12 bar melody consisting of only 3 notes
i hate melody writing
i think it's a ridiculous waste of time
: /

jia's suppose to crash my house
where is that woman?
-stares

oh wells
mom's entertaining herself downstairs
what in the name of the good lord is she doing?
she said she's MAKING COOKIES FOR CHINESE NEW YEAR
my goodness
chinese new year's like a month away?
KIASUISM
tsktsk
-shake head
old people









my falling ; 12:15 PM

Saturday, January 15, 2005

I GOT MY PHONE BACK!
please ask for my new number
WOO HOO!
((((((:



my falling ; 2:19 PM

Friday, January 14, 2005

rachh !
granddaughter dear!
don't be so upset yeahh?
all the negative chi, NOT GOOD!
there's nothing wrong with you
it's just the world that's fcuked up
no matter what, i'll be here always
love you loads dearie!
((:




my falling ; 10:36 PM

guestbook replies

cris !
HEYY!
-waves back
triple science killing you?
oh man, nevermind, i feel your pain
it's alright la
i have so much faith in you
GO BESTIE GO!
i love you tons!
((:

lua !
MILADY
the miles grow between us
and i do yearn for your company so
i live for the days where we can finally meet
and you will talk crap about some stupid ass on the stained glass
WHAT IS THIS!?
missing you like hell too
love dear!

jinan !
BABY!
i think that person is so funny
you? arrogant brat, what shit?!
mep lesson on monday
lunch together yeahh?
and i shall go crazy with the scotch tape again
ahahahaha
love baby !



my falling ; 9:22 PM

pick me up

some kids outside my house are playing with that sparkle thingy
the ones with noise
i think they are so cute!

yesterday;130105
crappy crappy day
pauline is SOO funny
we were doing some dno what window thing
so me chew pauline and jaime one group
then pauline started imitating some lame segment
from the amanda show on nickelodean (?)
was SOOO funny
she can do it soo well

met winnie and was going to the hall to get our things foo trng at marist
met dania and she told us yunnie's dad was fetching us

didn't train much
just doubles play
had fun though
got rather irritated at weifeng
oh well, this kinda people.
-shake head shake head
shouldn't be alive

dania's dad sent me home
i think i really own him alot alot of money
HEHHH
-stares at dania

was feeling majorly low yesterday
but everything's cool now
((:

today;140105
chinese lesson was a total drag today
:/

lunched with winnie
and some other shuttlers on the table behind ours
cos no more space

trng was alright
wind too freaking strong
down to gym for weights
did with my SISTAHH
then EIGHT FREAKING ROUNDS
my knees are like KILLING me now la

dinner with rahh jean yannyee pris
had a good time
-grins

bused back with pris






my falling ; 9:00 PM

Wednesday, January 12, 2005

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIA!



my falling ; 10:53 PM

that star is a starfish??

school was normal and not that sleep inducing today

lunched with some sec ones and winnie
had fun with jean's phone
-grins

stock taking after lunch
woo hoo
the cupboard areas are like SOOOOO nice and neat now la
snbt rocks my socks la

trng was alright la
SISTAHH!
i dno what to say to you
but my sistahh rocks la ok?
you rock you stone you pebble you gravel you sand you iceberg you ice cube
YOU'RE THE BEST
and don't ever think you're anything less than that
love my SISTAHH every so much
((:

it's amazing what missing 2 sessions of trng can do to your stamina
hurrr
nevermind, i'll live
and i really don't wna miss trng on monday
but it can't be helped
i guess the alternative is better than skipping trng
-stares at pris

bused back with pris

reached home at around 8
and immediately called jia
ran over to give her her birthday present
and had another slice of her AMAZING birthday cake
rocks la!

didn't plan to stay long
but end up staying till like 945?
was bitching
wahahahaha
i love talking with jia
(((:

had alot of laughs
but the best one was probably that
"i don't see how orion belt's can fit orion unless orion's a starfish"
WAHAHAHAHAHAHA
off cos, off cos jia
off cos orion is a STARFISH!
not forgetting the fact that scientist who study the stars
say that orion is actually a HUNTER
HARHAR

winnie just called
trng at marist tmr
go nessa go?

somehow i can't find any enthusiam in me
to actually be enthu about trng
which is really weird since i was the one who can't go trng on monday
and i was the one who wanted so desperately to make up for it
:/


chew's not going cos of lit test on friday
i'm feeling useless
:/

i'm off to go understand today's maths lesson
i'll live









my falling ; 10:25 PM

Tuesday, January 11, 2005

the silence is deafening

school was alright
fell asleep during physics though
was wayyyyyyy too tired

waited for pris and rahh
they came my class at around 221
so had to wait for them from 1 oclock la!
cos lessons ended REALLY early for me today
i'm beginning to really like tuesdays
if it wasn't for that STUPIDDD last period
it's chinese if you have to know
:/

lunched with pris rahh manda yannyee sheng
yannyee and sheng left soon after
crapped a hell lot with rahh pris and manda
was freaking funny
walked down street 13 laughing like some lunatic

i love rahh manda pris LOADS!
:)))

went j8 and i feel EXTREMELY accomplished!
pierced my 3rd hole there
spend like 1 1/2 hours at seventy seven street la
was so scared of the gun thingy

pierced with rahh
sadistic pris said she tagged along to see our pain
:/
-shake head
tsktsk

anyhow
me and rahh were pretty scared la
but my brave daughter pierced before me
was terrified of the anticipated pain
but the girl doing the piercing is SUPER duper nice la
she didn't eat her dno what (tea?)
because of me
she's nice nice nice
:)))

anyhow
brother's birthday today
going out for dinner
-nods
i'm already all nice and clean
bathed and changed

waiting for my brother to come pick me up
didn't get him anything for his birthday though
:/
i totally forgot about his birthday la
till this afternoon
should have got his present from j8 just now
but was too occupied with my ear piercing

oh well
i'm pleased to say i'm alive!
i survive the piercing!
nessa, i'm proud of you !
(((:







my falling ; 5:08 PM

Monday, January 10, 2005

OMG WTF BBQ SAUCE WAFFLES
-stares at jia

MATHS IS UTTERLY HOPELESS
i GIVE UP
-throws hands up in defeat

it's totally CRAP CRAP CRAP CRAP
and to think i was ENJOYING maths lesson today
HURRRRRRRRRRRR

screw maths
OMG WTF BBQ SAUCE WAFFLES



my falling ; 11:06 PM

ryan cabrera ; true

i won't talk
i won't breathe
i won't move till you finally see
that you belong with me

you might think
i don't look
but deep inside in the corner of my mind
i'm attached to you

i'm weak
it's true
cause i'm afraid to know the answer
do you want me too?
cause my heart keeps falling faster

i've waited all my life
to cross this line
to the only thing that's true
so i will not hide
it's time to try anything to be with you
all my life i've waited

this is true

you don't know
what you do
everytime you walk into the room
i'm afraid to move

i'm weak
it's true
i'm just scared to know the ending
do you see me too?
do you even know you met me?

Iive waited all my life
to cross this line
to the only thing that's true
so i will not hide
it's time to try, anything to be with you
all my life i've waited

this is true

i know when i go
i'll be on my way to you
the way that's true

i've waited all my life
to cross this line
to the only thing thats true
so i will not hide
it's time to try, anything to be with you
all my life i've waited

this is true




my falling ; 10:24 PM

why can't i find you

mep today was actually quite alright
mr cher off cos was total crap
but other than that,
lesson was generally alright
i didn't fall asleep!
:))))

for some reason,
i was in a SUPER studious mood for the WHOLE day
felt so enthu about school work la
except for the one hour during chinese
but that goes without saying
i personally think chinese should be banned
i don't care what anyone says about it being our heritage and all that
it sucks and FULLSTOP!

piercing 2nd ear hole with rahh tmr
YAYYYY!
i can't wait!
(:

went to the hall after mep lesson
talked to mr phee about my lesson timing and trng timing etc.
i really hope it works out in the end
:/

dinner with pris and jean at macs
pris got the beef thingy
i got beancurd
:)))
it's been ages since i last had it

loads of homework to catch up on
shall go do it now
i really needa do the chinese one
ONE MORE SONG!
i have to find ONE MORE SONG!
go nessa go!
-punches the air






my falling ; 9:36 PM

Sunday, January 09, 2005

came back just now from a long talk with jia
was ENRICHING
-stares at jia

talked about quite a few things
and we made each other laugh like mad
i realise i really miss doing that
:/

her birthday cake
which, incidentally was NEW YORK CHEESECAKE
was SINFULLY DELICIOUS

jia
we will go melbourne together and have dogs!
love dearie!
:)))



my falling ; 11:40 PM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RAHH!



my falling ; 7:13 PM

anything to be with you

slept till like 1 this afternoon
sorry nic
sorry cris
-bites lower lip

nothing much to blogg about
spend the whole day just slacking away

mep tmr
i can hardly wait
-rolls eyes

honestly, the whole thing is just plain stupid la
i really shouldn't have taken up mep la
such a total waste of my time
and now i can't go for monday trng because of that
what shit is this?!
-roars

jia !
i'll be awaiting your call tonight!
don't be so upset yeahh?
love loads
-hugs

lua
yoyo wassup dude!
like totally alive and kicking man!
what's with you and our church's stained glass?
-hugs




my falling ; 6:03 PM

Friday, January 07, 2005

baby it's you

i'm stuck at home now
i'm NOT at training
though i REALLY wanna be there

why is that so?
cos i'm SICK
god i hate being sick

my head feels like someone just knocked it apart with a hammer
and is sticking 69284657984 knives into my soft and mushy brain

yeahh, it's that sick

MY HEAD ACHES!

school today was alright la
i actually enjoyed the maths lesson today
was probably because i could actually understand what ms poore was saying
and i could even do the few algebra sums she set

lit was really crappy today
danielle was especially funny
" i can help settle disputes. like saying. you, shut up and you, shut up"
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
so totally crappified

tmr's cca fair
we'll see if mom would let me go
she totally flipped when i called her this afternoon
telling her i wasn't feeling well

paranoid mothers
-shakes head




my falling ; 5:08 PM

RACH!
dear ahh!
you are under my SWEETS! list
far too important to be under SN la
ahahaha
love my grand daughter alot!

PRIS!
you silly little girl
ahahaha
yahh la.
ALMIGHTIER than me siah?
wahahahaha
you are such a joker
-winks
love babe!




my falling ; 11:54 AM

Thursday, January 06, 2005

losing grip

2nd post of the day
and the other post was less than 2 hours ago
what is this?

shoutouts !

NIC !
bestieeeeeeeee!
girlfriend, i miss you SOO much it's scary
sorry about today yeahh?
love loads my CHOCOLATE COVERED FUDGIE CANDY LOVE!

CRIS !
my other bestieeeeeeeeee!
has been a long long time
since when ahh?
youth international ahh?
anyhow, jia you for 2005 and i sound extrememly cheesy :/
love loads my MARSHMELLOW RAINBOW SPRINKLES SUGAR RUSH!

ASH !
my other other bestieeeeeee!
you lousy lousy lousy thing
choose history elective instead of geog
now you're in loyalty and i'm here in justice :/
i should have chosen history now that i think about it
heck i got higher for history instead of geog for eoy la
what is this?!
oh well, nevermind.
love loads my TIRAMISU TURIKSH ICE CREAM SWEET HIGH!

jia !
55 MINUTE RANDOM WALKS!
how come you haven't called me yet?
I AM SO DISAPPOINTED!
nevermind, i still love you
anyhow, i know you'll do fine in njc
and i can tell you're having fun!
ahahahaha.
love my darling jia tons!
you're my sweetest sin :)

clar lua!
pony!
it's been AGES since i last saw you
you coming for cath class not?
you better ahh!
missing you like crazy already
hope you're doing good in njc
i can't tell since you haven't blogg about it yet
love loads PONY!
you're my sweetest sin :)

jinan
JINAN MY BABY!
wahahahaha
don't you love your barbie dollies?
ooooo, goochi goochi goo!
love my BABY lots and lots
wahahahahahah
you're my sweetest sin :)

pris
SEXAYYE BABE!
i'm sure ______ agrees with me
wahahahahahahaha
love my sexayye babe loads!
(well, not MINE. SOMEBODY'S at any point -winks)
top 4 for pilot pen yeahh?
go pris !
you're my sweetest sin :)

tiong
SISTAHHH!
you're the best sister i could hope to have
love my SISTAHHH ever so much!
you're my sweetest sin :)

sheng manda rahh
DAUGHTERS!
rahh; WHO'S AARON?!
manda; who's my son in law ahh?
who did you gao with to get rachel?
speak the truth, the truth will set you free :)
don't forget your top four for pilot pen ahh!
sheng; my daughter who gaos the least
when are you going to get a boyfriend ahh?
make sure he's rich, then can yang wo. better hurry get ahh!
i'm not getting any younger
top four for pilot pen yeahh?
then got prize! haha
love my 3 daughters ever so much
you're my sweetest sinS :)

yannyee
MOMMY` AHBU`MOTHER!
wahahahahha.
love my mother so ever much!
you're my sweetest sin :)

snbt
my second family
i love each and everyone of you to bits and pieces
we'll work hard and get champion for everything this year yeahh?
go snbt!
:)
you're my sweetest sins :)





my falling ; 3:17 PM

gimme the definition of lonely

didn't go school today
really didn't feel well this morning
mom allowed me to stay home

slept tilll about 1220
called nic to tell her i couldn't go out with her today
was SOOO immensely guilty
since it's kinda like my fault
I'M SORRY NIC!

don't think i can go cca fair on saturday
see first
-sulks
I WANT TO GO!
this is going to be one screwed up weekend
-glares at older brother
GEE!
thanks ever ever ever ever so much
HURRR!






my falling ; 2:43 PM

Wednesday, January 05, 2005

don't give me shit, not again

met my physics chem and maths teachers today
all are highly amusing

didn't really have any lessons today
we didn't really do anything
did some diagnostic test during english though
i really really didn't like the passage

snbt meeting for cca fair later
productive

trng was alright.
macs with yannyee rahh pris and jean afterwards
rahh is SOOOOOOO crap i cannot take it
she made up a TOTAL crap story about a CHIHUAHUA
(did i spell that right? probably not. my spelling's screwed today)
was so so funny

macs till about 8
cabbed home

did i mention?
my class this year
threejustice2005 is amazingly small?
there's like only 26 of us
and for the FIRST FIRST ever time
i'm an index number 20-something

that's a HUGE difference from my 35 last year

there's so many things i want to say to HER
but i know i probably would NEVER find the courage to
if anyone thinks i'm all obessed about some girl
and i'm turning les
please go jump down a tall building
cos i'm not.
I AM NOT LES.

she's just making me feel inferior and in debt to her
that is just fcuking not right
she's pulling me DOWN

on a brighter note
NIC AND CRIS TMR!
yay yay yay!
besties besties besties!
-beams
















my falling ; 10:06 PM

Tuesday, January 04, 2005

i messed up

first and second day of school summed up in one word
UNPRODUCTIVE

did close to nothing
lessons start tmr
i'm actually anticipating them
wonder what sec 3 life would be like

imagine that
i'm in upper sec already
i'm in SECONDARY THREE
how does that sound?
vanessa audris lim
of SECONDARY THREE justice
i still feel sectwo-ish
:/

after school lunched at macs
got chased out by the macs people
cos me pris and jean weren't eating macs food
went out and shared tables with this primary five girl
was SUPER DUPER amusing

bel came later and crapped awhole load
went back into macs and bel went story telling
-winks
bel laughs and lies very funnily (?)
haha

stayed till 530 and left with pris

come to think of it
i have nothing to blogg about
i thought i would have
but i just can't seem to express myself well enough
so forget it la
-shrugs

there's too much running through my brain
i'm fearing for my sanity
-shakes head
it's time i learn how to let go








my falling ; 9:24 PM

Sunday, January 02, 2005

to the two who are leaving me

JIA
i'm missing you so very dearly already! what more when you're in njc? thanks for the LOVELY earrings. i shall wear them ever so often. you take care of yourself too yeahh? RANDOM 55 MINUTE WALKS! i'll squeeze them into my ridiculously impossible schedule. and now that you mention it. my trng does seem stupid. all the weights running physical, etc. just to hit some cock and a bunch of feathers. oh well. i'm mental so sue me. thanks for being such a lovely friend. i love you loads and loads and loads SHROUDY PIE! -beams

LUA
I DON'T WANT YOU TO GO TO NJC! -clings on to lua. you're my sunshine (my only sunshine, you make me happy...) the true essence of my soul. without you, my life is not worth living. -thunder lighting but on a serious note. i'm so gna miss my PONY! you and your crap. you and your ridiculous laughter. you and your comical doings. you and your... EVERYTHING! i'll miss you right down to your teeny weeny cutie toes. you're truly one of a kind and death to anyone who dares contradicts me. i love you ones and tens and hundreds and thousands and millions and billions PONY!


both
DARLINGS! take care yes? no matter what, i'll be here till the end of time. i'm just a phonecall (and a scary mom) away. i love you two so very very very much. my sec two life will be so different without you two. thanks for being two of the most crappy people i know. life would be totally bleak without you two. thanks for the laughs and the shoulders for me to cry on. thanks for the ridiculous critism and the awesome compliments. i know i rock. but guess what? you two rock too! -HUGS i'm feeding your egos. NOT GOOD! love you two to the end of the world and back. missing you two already.




my falling ; 9:35 PM

all dressed up you're good to go

back to school tmr
-whines weeps groans moans
not looking forward to it

my only sole comfort is that i'll be seeing ash again
and i'm in the same class as chew
this year is gna be hella crappy with chew
ahaha

mom's out
brother's out
so i'm all alone at home
trying to enjoy my last few hours of holiday

oh yes
i did something really stupid this afternoon
was playing with my pen knife
-quotes ash " people don't PLAY with pen knives ness"
and i put it on my finger and SLIT
i see blood
and it didn't hit for another good 30 seconds
finally i geddit
i cut myself
and was screaming quite badly
i don't like blood you see
please don't think i'm suicidal
i'm not really
i was alittle dazed la

trng tmr
pris said she baked brownies
YAYNESS!
-beams

just off the phone with ash
she's freaking worried about her english holiday hmwk
wahahaha
-gloats
i'm nearly done with mine!

NIC!
i need to see you NOW!
love bestie!



my falling ; 8:24 PM

miscellaneous stuff

spell your first name backwards: vanessa; assenav

6 words that sum you up right now: fallen, i have sunk so low.

who or what (was, is, are)

in your head: my brain.

person you wish you could see right now: someone

something you're looking forward to in the upcoming month: badminton zonals?

do you like the taste of blood: oh yeahh man! see my fangs? young vampire in the making.

do you believe in love: sometimes. occasionally i don't. go figure

what's the latest you've ever stayed up: more than 24 hours.

can you eat with chopsticks without making a mess: yeahh. i'm chinese you see

what's something you wish could happen right now: i'm still thinking

something from 2004 you regret: something i trust myself to never do again

something from 2004 you loved: something. but if you must know. it's the same thing as the thing i regret

favourite radio station: perfect10

favourite weekend do: sleep in

favourite hangout: malls. it's an inborn thing, i LOVEEE shopping

who do you look like. mom or dad: i've been told i look like my real dad

who do you relate the most to: i have no idea. me myself and i?

Name: vanessa audris lim

Nickname: nessa, ness

Eye colour: brown

Hair colour: dark brown

Who do you love:a whole long list. but snbt and besties top the list

---Do You---
Whine a lot: i don't think so. do i?

Yell a lot: ho hum. -coughs

Love school: to a vertain extent

Have a bf/gf:-raise eyebrow

----
Kissed someone: my family

Talked on the phone for over 3 hours: yeahh! girls bitch and bitchin needs time

Dumped someone:-raise both eyebrows

~LAST PERSON~


You Touched: mom

You Talked to: mom

You Hugged: brother

You Instant messaged: on msn? winnie my SISTAHH!

~ARE YOU~
Understanding: i dno. am i?

Open-minded: pretty much

Arrogant: i dno. am i?

Insecure: to a certain extent

Hard working: depends

Organized:occasionally, but hardly

Shy: sometimes

Attractive: i would say.. NO

Bored Easily: depends

Messy: take a look at my room and answer that yourself

Trusting: yeahh. i think so

Talkative: wahahaha. yeahhhh

Reliable: -shrugs

Self-disciplined: with certain things

Sleepy: now? no

Lonely: in a what way? in a physical way i technically am since there's no one in the room with me. but in the emotional sense. nahhh. not really. feel desolated occasionally but it's nothing really.

Have you ever...
Been in a fist fight? i don't believe in violence

Laughed so hard you cried? yeahhhh

Other...
What color would you dye your hair? no dye. highlight yeahh. ermmm. i don't really care. hehh

Do you sleep with one pillow or two? two.

Do you have a best friend? i have best friendS

Are you a saver or a spender? spender. definately

More junk...
Which 6 people do you trust and are open with the most? nic cris ash pris lua and jia

Who's phone number are you hoping to get? nobody's

Football or rugby? neither. give me badminton anyday

What's something you ALWAYS have on you? clothes

Even More Junk...
Have you lived in the same house your entire life? nope.

Happy with your life? happy yes. contented no. understand?

Are you named after anyone?: yeahh. some banker my mom met in australia. and vanessa williams. GO FIGURE!


Would you name a child of yours after you?: no, never. i love my name too much

If you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your name be? what i'll choose myself? i like drake and jake. joshua's not bad. but my mom would choose issac. EWWWWW!

If you could switch names with a friend who would it be?: i wouldn't want to switch with anyone. but if i must. rahh! i like sarah alot.

Are there any mispronounciations/typos that ppl do w/ your name: all the time. please don't ever call me VINISI. i will KILLLLLLLLLLL you.

Would you drop your last name if you became famous?: maybe.

Basics
Your gender: female. without a shadow of a doubt

Straight/Gay/Bi: 180 degress str.

Single?: single. and unavaliable. i'm WAITING! -stares

Birthdate: 17041990

Your age: 14

Age you act: ahhh? i don't act any age.

Your height: UNDISCLOSED! way too short.

Lefty/righty/ambidextrous: righty

Do you speak another language?: chinese and alittle bit of malay

Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: to a certain extent.

Do you have any secrets?:.ohhh. plenty. what wouldn't you give to know every last one.

Do you hate yourself?: certain bits. esp my implusive-ness

Do you like your handwriting?: no.

Do you have any bad habits?: yeahh. i'm not perfect. and neither are you! WAHAHAHAHA

What is the compliment you get from most people?: i get different stuff from different people

If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: vanessa (slashed and in small print) audris lim

Can you sing?: -COUGHS. no

Are you a daredevil?: i take risks

Are you passive or aggressive?: generally aggressive

What is your greatest strength and weakness?: errrr. i dno.

Do you think you are emotionally strong?yeahh. i think so.

Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: yeahh. tons. there's one thing i know i would DEFINATELY regret if i don't do. but i'm still not taking any action. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?!

Are you confident?: i like to act so. but yeahh. i think so

Do You...
Go to church?: yeahh. UNWILLINGLY. to be very honest.

Talk to strangers: not really. the most is an excuse me or sorry.

Would or Have You Ever?

Been in love? yeahh. -eyes goes all dreamy

Had a medical emergency? nope.

Had surgery? nope.

Been on stage?: yeahh.

Pulled an all nighter? what's that?

If yes, what is your record?: errrr. -points up

Gone one day without food?: yeahh. slept the better part of the day away.


Talked on the phone all night?: well. not ALL night. but close enough

Been betrayed?: yeahh. it hurt real bad. real real bad.

Had a dream that kept coming back? yeahhh

Friends
Who are your best friends?: NIC ASH CRIS!

Who's the one person that knows most about you? me myself and i. i don't share alot about me to anyone. it's just not something i do.

What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you?: when things get really bad, they can only get better.

Who's your longest known friend: errmmmm. jia? pretty much.


Newest?: hmmm. haven't got a clue

Shyest?: jen?

Funniest?: rahh!

Sweetest?: alot of people i know are sweet.

Closest?: nic ash cris jia lua pris

Ditziest?: ahaha. jean? hehhhh.

Who are you on the phone with most? i dno. when i call either one of these people, jia lua cris ash nic, i stay on the phone for like 2608476547 hours

Who do you trust most?: me myself and i

Who listens to your problems?: my wall. i lie in bed, face the wall and talk to myself.

Who do you fight most with?: internal struggles with myself. NESSA TAKE ACTION! but it's so wrong! yeahh. my internal conflicts.

Who's the nicest?: everyone's nice

Who's the most outgoing?: ahaha. alot of them are really outgoing.

Who's your second family?: snbt!

Do you always feel understood?: not all the time. but i don't feel misunderstoon either. it's kinda... in between

Who's the loudest friend?: coughs

Do you trust others easily?: to be honest. no. not really. i have to REALLY get to know you before i can actually start to trust you.

Who's house were you last at? if you don't count mine. ermmmmm. outside jia's house. does that count? at the gate.

Name one person who's arms you feel safe in: my brother.

Do your friends know you?: they know my name! but no one can say they know every last thing about me. i have way too many secrets

Friend that lives farthest: my bestie nic, who although is in spore now, lives in AUSTRALIA

Love and All That
Do you consider love a mistake?: it's a twist of fate.

What do you find romantic?: roses. deep red roses. and a whole load of other stuff that you'll giggle at.

First kiss?: what about it?

Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them: but off cos! what if your date turns out to be some rapist? freaaaaky!

Are you in love?: i'm in a state of obession if that makes any sense.

Do you consider your significant other hot? what significant other?

Holiday: huhh? what's that mean? i like chinese new year and christmas best.

Season: winter and spring

LAST ..
Movie you rented: don't rent movies. brother buy dvds, i watch them

Song you listened to: tangled up in me

CD you bought: britney's latest one

Person you kissed: i can't rmbr. mom?

Word you said: night brother

Song you sang: tangled up in me

Thing you bought: eraser from popular

Person you called: cris

Vacation you went on: australia in october.

DO YOU ..
Play sports:yeahh. badminton

Go to school: yeahh

Get good grades: i'm not satisfied with my grades. does that satisfy YOU?

RANDOM
How often do you change your profile: profile on what? i change my msn nick pretty often

How many people on your buddy list: msn? do i really have to count?

How many are online right now: 13

What time is it: 2 plus in the morning

Whats the date: 02012005

What did you do yesterday: ranking in the morning at marist, lunch at heartland, wedding dinner at night

Do you have a cell phone: yeahh. but my mom's not giving it back to me. -glares

Ever seen Grease: yeahh. love it

Most embarassing moment: i'll take that secret with me to the grave

-------------------------------
--This or That--
Mixtape or Burned CD: no preference

Love or Lust: love. lust is... so sexually induced

Sexy or Just "cute": alittle of both

Dimples or Eyes: both, preferably eyes since a guy with no eyes is just plain freaky

tall or short: TALL!

rich or average joe: RICH!

looks or characther: first i'll go for looks, but in the end, it's always the characther that gets me

brother or sister: BROTHER! just three letters and they give you whatever you want. P M and S








my falling ; 1:34 AM