Sunday, July 31, 2005

the art of deceit

i declare today a sucess!

met jia.
well, not really met since we live so near each other
ok, nevermind

went down to my church together cause the very stupid me left something of my mama's there
so went down to collect
had my cheap thrill in the bus
haha!
((((:


after that, trained to bishan j8 for lunch
had tori q! (((:
rocks

walked around j8 abit.
saw lovely converse shoes
-big grin

trained up to cityhall and went to funan it centre
jia and i were being very retarded in the train
all thanks to stupid jia who insisted on planting her rear end in front of my face!
-stares and bursts into laughter

booked my exam studio for thursday
wanted to book today also, but it was fully booked
went down to the apple centre
LOVELY LOVELY IPOD MINIS!
i want i want!!

basically walked around and had plenty of fun
((((:

once again, JIA YOU ARE NOT FAT
IF YOU EVER DARE SAY YOU'RE FAT AGAIN I WILL POKE YOU!

as jia says
we went out "shopping" and bought nothing but food
which is actually true.
sad but true
bought nothing but food
god, i'm gna grow fat!

mama called and i went down to taka to meet her
had retarded moments once again on the train with jia
haha!
I LOVE YOU JIA!
I DO I DO I DOOOOO!

ok. dropped at orchard and walked around wisma cause my mama hadn't reach taka yet
went to forever 21 and saw earrings that i want!
then top shop.
EVEN MORE EARRINGS I WANT!
not to mention the GORGEOUS skirts too
then surfbabe
piangs ehhh!
so many things i want
got bag, slippers, jacket, more bags, wallet, more slippers, shirts, more shirts, more jackets, skirts, oh man.
i wanted practically the whole shop la

mama called again and walked down to taka to find her
piangs ehh, i think i walked nearly the whole of taka trying to find her
she said she was in taka the babies section, what level four
went to level four, abit stores like CHANEL la!
in the end, it was level 3

ok.
walked even more but still couldn't find her
in the end i did find her.
with my sis in law, brother and nephew in tow
whoa, rocks man

then, walked around taka with them
bought stuff!
yes. i am HAPPY!
my mama was in good mood i think
whatever i want she buy
wanted to go to wisma surfbabe but my brother said i was being too spoilt and had too many branded stuff
hurrr

had crystal jade for dinner
YAYYY!
rocks la.
ate so much though. gna grow ever so fat
goshh
thank you ever so much dan, my blackmail-ist yoyo brodahh, for constantly reminding me of my weight issue.
-stares!

ok.
that was what happened today! ((:

i wna do guestbook replies but i'm not really in the mood
so just for now.
people who signed
THANK YOU VERY MUCH
PLEASE SIGN MORE!
and i promise i'll hurry go do a reply soon ok?
:D




our AGREEMENT
(((:


my falling ; 9:50 PM

NESSA! JIA THE REASON FOR YOUR EXISTENCE IS HERE AS PROMISED (:

I've never left you in any sense of that word, and I never will.
you mean more to me than anybody in nj ever could (:
heck you made me regret even coming. but even then, thankyou for listening to me despite having 578683254821 other conversations going on at the same time and promising to poke every thoroughly offending person.
thankyou for making me laugh despite anything and everything and for scraping my ego off the floor every time :/

your piano exam's gna be a breeze la, there's a certificate of pass with distinction with your name on it.
I wish you luck anyway. LUCK! haha.

okays I will go practice for my exam too.
love you THIS much more than you love me and don't you dare forget it !
I can't say I'll always be there for you the way you're there for me, cause you set the standards way to high...
lunch together again soon!
and penthouse hunting in about 10 years. :)

XOXO JIA


my falling ; 3:08 PM

Saturday, July 30, 2005


this is PROPAGANDA!
off cause, i can't say anything
save some govt person reads it and PUTS ME IN JAIL
PROPAGANDA I TELL YOU!
PROPAGANDA!

my falling ; 10:48 PM

more than words

lalalas
back from church
was alright la
i don't really wna blog about that cause i do the same thing there everyweek
not trying to say i think it's boring
cause it's not. it's FUNNNN!
it's just you know, every week blog the same thing
can understand how tiring it gets

ok.
i realised i miss alot of people
i miss NIC
i miss CRIS
i miss JIA
i miss LUA
i miss my snbt SEC FOURS
i miss my SWEETHEART :D

piangs ehh.
it's like nearly everyone i miss is leaving me
or already has left me
nic, cris, jia and lua all in a sense has left me
they ALL used to be in st nicks with me
then suddenly everyone disappeared
cris being the first, she went to another secondary school
then if that wasn't bad enough, nic left for australia
THEN! jia and lua went nj
fate is twisted. the people closest to me leave me
would you leave too?
-stares

i dno why i'm thinking of such things
but suddenly just did.
was talking today to my mama about people leaving
leaving as in dying and never coming back
(well, i hope they never come back. it's freaky just thinking about it)
i guess i'm highly afriad of seeing the people that i love leave me
but then again, who isn't?
unless you are a cold blooded thing with no one in the world to love, or you're just strange

when i hear my friends talk about heartbreak and stuff like that
i get alittle skeptical, not to mention irritated
like, GET OVER IT MAN
it's just a stupid guy. there're others out there
why waste your tears on an asshole anyway?

i'm not heartbroken or whatever
so don't think i am
i'm FAR from heartbroken.
it's just that. i was thinking that perhaps sometimes it hurts that much?
so much that you cry. because you feel cheated and betrayed
am i making sense?
talking to one of my church friends today kinda made me realised you can love someone THAT much.
so much till you feel completely lost when you realise it's over
i could practically feel her pain.
is it THAT bad?
i don't know. i never think that much
my thinking is quite simple
over equals over. no more. the end. get on with life. not worth the tears etc.
i think you get my drift

argh
i don't even know why i'm saying all this
my screwed up self
i apologise for typing such rubbish and making you read all of it
but then again, you didn't have to
:D

note*
maybe i do know what it's like to love till it hurts
-looks wise





another note *
please don't think whatever i say here seriously
i crap way too much


my falling ; 10:02 PM

Friday, July 29, 2005

my great joy; BESTIE NIC !

NIC !
i got your letter today!
YAYYYYYYYYYY
I AM HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY!
(((((((((((:

thank you my DARLING ABSOLUTELY CANDY SWEET BESTIEEE!
I LOVE YOU MUCH MUCH MUCH!

and never sell the house in goldcoast area la
HAIYO!
ahahaha
ok. i'll HURRY reply!
actually, me and ash are gna write a combine one again on monday
so you can start crying from all the laughter again!
(((((:

and the "ness, you must have done SOMETHING" thing
well, wait for the letter la
and wahahaha. we'll see. yes we'll see!
(((:

your handwriting hasn't change!
NOT ONE BIT!
whoa, rocks sia?
and the pictures ahh. ohmygod i look stupid la.
hahaha
in that one with you, ash, cris jana and i don't who's the other one
tab or qinn?
ok. nevermind

ahhh!
I AM SO EXCITED!
i got my bestie's letter! i got my bestie's letter!
-jumps around!

ok
MONDAY WE WILL REPLY!
(((:

I LOVE YOU BABE!


my falling ; 8:05 PM

in the writing lab

in the writing lab now doing my discursive essay
well, i am done with it and there're about 8 minutes left to the lesson so i came to blog!

anyhow, i love the writing lab
i love the fact that i don't have to write my essay out
hee
well, typing's always better and besides, there's always SPELLCHECK!
(((:
i love spellcheck. my spelling's horrendous la

hohum.
havta go dno do what for my pen awards thingy
honestly, i don't even wna join
my essay was crap. no inspiration

hello minfang!
i know you're reading this
-waves

minfang just said, "what are you doing? haha"
-walks away.

alright
lesson's nearly over and it's MATHS after this.
oh goshh, trig graphs
i hate trig graphs cause they're curve graphs
heck i hate all sorts of graphs
curve, straight, crooked, what the heck
graphs are disgusting
full stop.

ladidas

i love my sweetheart!
(:


my falling ; 8:49 AM

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

today's english lesson

before i begin
finished practising my piano about 40 minutes ago
not very long today
not even an hour
really gotta do maths
did like 8 questions so far
break time (:

yes. i want to blog about today's english lesson
was HILARIOUS i tell you

me, sab, bekah, celine and joanne were the "judges"
the rest of the class were split into five groups and each had to present their case to us
was argueing each's point so as to win a scholarship
xinying is amazing i tell you
rocks la. super funky. super confident. super happening :D
in the end, her role play thing won. so her character won the scholarship la

then, mrs sng split us into another four groups
chicken, cow, pig and sheep
i was a chicken with huiyi, jaime, laura, joanne and jennifer

the story goes :
mrs sng is the farmer and she wants to kill an animal for her christmas dinner
each group of animal must argue why the farmer should not kill them and kill the other animals
was SUPER funny

laura on high or something.
thought up of the most stupid things

examples

kill the cows cause they eat too much grass, no oxygen for the farmer
then they burp got methane. OZONE LAYER! later farmer die of skin cancer

kill the sheep
cause they got so much wool, you need it for winter, to keep you warm. they're so pitiful without the wool, so cold. just kill them and rid them of their misery la

kill the pigs
cause. erm. they are smelly
and they go OINK. i mean, what kind of sound is THAT?!
so retarded right?
so retarded.


super funny la
laughed like hell
was practically tearing from all the laughter
and was stepping back and nearly tripped and fell cause i was laughing too much

god, i wish all english lessons were like that
(((:


my falling ; 9:36 PM

self discipline

i will get off the computer at EIGHT PM
yes i WILL

have got to practise piano AND study for maths test tmr
goshh, the entire Emaths chapter 10
ENTIRE. you know how long that chapter is?!
trigo can be fun, but with so many things to learn, it just gets annoying

counting down to my piano exam
NINE DAYS
nine nine nine nine nine
goshh, is it THAT fast?

ok. stop complaining and whining nessa
it's irritating you know

hmmm.
training was kinda draining today
which is strange since it wasn't much different from any other trainings
i dno la. too many things on my mind?

i have like 6 tests next week
or something like that

chem, elit, english, mep, CME ( ?????) and add maths
english, elit and CME not so bad
just read through and for lit, just go online get some stuffs
chem, mep and add maths
mygoodness.

i'm STILL complaining and whining
three more minutes to eight
just when i was getting comfortable
ohwell, what has to be done must be done


In the name of the Father, of the Son and of the Holy Spirit.
Dear Lord,
please help me through this week and the next
too many things piling up on my to-do folder
it's all to much to bear
i give my weeks to you and i pray that you give me the strength to pull through
i put my trust in you and pray for the peace that only you can give

thank you lord for each and every breath that i take
for i am nothing without you.
thank you for everything in my life.
it's only through your grace that i have so many blessings
thank you lord for everything i've ever known

This in Jesus's name i pray
Amen.





drained of all i have left ;


my falling ; 7:51 PM

Tuesday, July 26, 2005

the clock ticks away and she's left alone

i have alot of work to do
easy work, but still alot of work
i don't feel like doing
but it's my RESPONSIBILITY
argh. pms mode = not good mood

well, on a brighter note
me and ash got the job shadowing thingy we both want
something to do with the MEDIA
which means, mediacorp la
YAYYY! SO FUN SO FUN!
(((:

i don't know what's wrong but my piano pieces are so strange la
today, during piano lesson, i couldn't play my pieces at all
just kept screwing up
couldn't keep time, keep slipping over my notes and KEPT RUSHING

then came home.
practise and guess what?
they're PERFECTLY FINE
they sound good, i feel shuang when i play them
and god, if this happens during the exam day, i am gna have a fit
well, hyperventilate then have a fit
I NEED TO DO WELL.
anyone kind enough to pray for me?
please?
-doe eye look

hmmmm
i'm quite worried for my ppr this term
I NEED TO DO WELL
i'm not worried cause i've been failing all my tests this term or what
(I AM NOT BY THE WAY)
it's just that, suddenly, my expectations of myself just shot sky high
nothing short of an A satisfys me (please exclude chinese)
could be ash's influence, but i doubt it
i've known her since primary four and this is the first time i've felt like this
goshh.
does that make sense?nevermind
you don't have to read it
if you read it already, too bad
i didn't force you
:D

alright, gotta do work.


my falling ; 9:06 PM

Monday, July 25, 2005

i am a maths genius !

-stares at sab and rebekah
yes i am a MATHS GENIUS!

why?
well, according to sab, it's cause i talk to myself when i do maths
wow! can't believe it.
i am a maths genius!
go nessa go!

lessons were fine really
during maths, we were generally left to ourselves?
just did alot of sums
maths test on thursday
on trigo. can you believe ash's class is AHEAD OF MINE?!
even with (your darling) ms poore
ash always says that to me
YOUR DARLING MS POORE
god, sounds like i crush ms poore or something

NO THAT IS NOT TRUE
is just that i always gloat about how awesome ms poore is to ash so she keeps saying that
utter rubbish don't you agree

did english oral today
yes ash, TODAY
was well, alright la
could have not rushed so much and do abit better?
but what the heck. i don't care

spent the entire chinese lesson talking to ash about stuff
hahaha
was hilarious

social studies was spent talking to sab about i can't rmbr what
stuff i suppose
hahaha
was FUN

MEP was alright
the company was great
BABY is super hilarious
made me laughed and laughed
we "talk-wrote" on my A4 paper
was hilarious

an example

nessa : ahhh. i want my mommy! (in protest to the boring mep lesson)
jinan : ??!!
nessa : ok, change i want my daddy!
jinan : what's next? grandfather
nessa : ok. final change. i want my ah ma!
jinan : great grandmother?

was super funny

went macs with ger, rach, manda and qiao
met nestor
marist sec one
haha
so hilarious
manda is EVILLLLLLL

cabbed back with ger
was fun!
i love my grand daughter MUCH!
my hilariously cute grand daughter

NIC !
hurry hurry reply!
rmbr the DURABLE paper!
and SEND IT TO ME!
and and and.. it was meant to be funny actually
hahaha
wanted to give you something entertaining to read
heee
i love you much BESTIE!




you're the only one


my falling ; 8:54 PM

Sunday, July 24, 2005

natasha thomas ; let me show you the way

let me show you the way
it's a game that we play
oh everyday so easy
let me show you the way
oh just say what you say
so easily

the way of your touch is always heavenly
and i love the way that you are lovin' me
you wrapped me up in the colour of your love
you must be an angel high from above in the game of the heart
you know i know that you are mine

let me show you the way
it's a game that we play
oh everyday so easy
let me show you the way
oh just say what you say
so easily

are you gonna be there when i need someone
and will i be always just the only one
i don't wanna have just another heartbreak
so tell me is your love true or a fake in the game of the heart
you know i know that you are mine

let me show you the way
it's a game that we play
oh everyday so easy
let me show you the way
oh just say what you say
so easily

one kiss
one love
one word
one mouth with nothin' more
one life
one dream
gonna save it save it for me

let me show you the way
it's a game that we play
oh everyday so easy
let me show you the way
oh just say what you say
so easily


(show you the way)
show you the way
game that we play
everyday so easy
let me show you the way
oh just say what you say
so easily

let me show you the way


my falling ; 10:54 PM

if you believe it's in my soul

back from church
i have no idea why i'm in such an incredibly grouchy mood
screw pms

am munching on famous amos cookies now
this is the first time EVER in my life that i don't feel comforted after gorging on them
oh lord. what's wrong?

maybe added with the fact i'm listening to pieces by sum41
(which incidentally is a pretty depressing song)
i'm just low la

ho hum
-looks over at bay
haha

ladidas
the sports trip is on my exam day
WHY?!
but i think i can go later right?
with some teacher after my exam
my mama is letting me pon school on friday (august fifth)
YAYYYYY!
gonna stay home and PRACTISE PRACTISE PRACTISE

i really hope i can go the sports trip
i mean, i REALLY wna go
it'll be so fun and team bonding!
yayyyy

jean's exam day also the same as mine
which is 5th august by the way
mine's at funan it mall
WHY?! i don't like cristofori (?) pianos!
jean's got heartland mall which is YAMAHA!
i am jealous

anyhow
mine's at 1435
pray for me yahh?
really hope i'll get my very much wanted distinction

alright
gonna go practise now
my first aural test is so gone la
sing the lower part by memory
oh goshh

then sight reading. my ultimate hate

pieces are fine just that i tend to rush
scales are fine except for dominant sevenths

goshh
so much to buck up on


i spend my time missing you


my falling ; 5:17 PM

Saturday, July 23, 2005

sectumsempra

argh.
pmsing

i don't wna go church
feel like staying at home and just sleep the whole entire day away

somebody slap me
:/


my falling ; 11:44 AM

Wednesday, July 20, 2005

my sweet embrace

lalala
i'm really blogging for the sake of blogging?
hahaha

dno la. these few days. not in the mood
did my harry potter post thing
saved it as draft
don't feel like publishing it
rather keep it for my own viewing pleasure
haha

anyhow
I HAVE FINISHED HALF BLOOD PRINCE!
((((:

it was awesome
wayyyy better than order of the phoenix which was just annoying

anyhow
my chem test was a disaster
i hope to god NOTHING like this ever happens again

anyhow.
i really gotta start paying more attention in physics
not that it'll do me much good anyway since mr gan is really quite a failure
but still, i don't know anything about forces and moments la
HOWHOWHOW?!

ok, KEEP CALM

oh screw it.
been abit screwed these few days
don't ask. brain aint functioning properly
it happens occasionally.

is that all it's about
life that is.
you study and you study and you study somemore
and finally when you get that job you've been wanting all your life (or maybe not)
then what happens?
you study so hard, then you work so hard
and eventually, you just DIE
the whole you only live once thing is kinda blured no?
i mean, everybody dies, then die la
ok, not thinking straight
need chocolate

i'm in some sort of pessimestic mood now
forgive me


my falling ; 10:45 PM

Monday, July 18, 2005

no sleep tonight

got that stupid song stuck in my head.
it's by the faders and it's just going round and round in my head
stupid infectious drum beat

anyhow
ash told me practically the entire half blood prince story during recess and chinese
once again, WHAT IS WRONG WITH JK ROWLING?!
she is doing serious injustice to the harry potter world
and bloody hell, she's the author, she does WHATEVER she wants

i shall do a spoiler post later.
am gna do my normal daily post now

anyhow, spent literally the whole of chinese and recess listening to ash talk about half blood prince
we both came to the conclusion that rowling is losing her touch

more on this later

ok
ss test after chinese
ash was right. i barely had enough time
i was writing non stop and my hand felt like it was gna break off or something
i hope i'll do fine.
especially for source base. had hardly any similarites to write.
oh goshh

mep was alright.
laughed a whole load i must say
baby is hilarious
was telling shi pei and gillian about half blood prince and cause baby hasn't finished reading hers yet she was like covering her ears going "DON'T TELL ME DON'T TELL ME"
super funny
and her "OUI!" is super funny
and i'm sorry for making you the scapegoat dear!
sorry la, mr cher is blind he though i was you clicking the pen
what rubbish
hahaha

went to popular after lesson to get my HALF BLOOD PRINCE!
ok
i'm going to read it now
ash read till 430 am this morning
what rubbish
hahaha

alright
harry potter here i come!
(:


my falling ; 9:47 PM

Sunday, July 17, 2005

WHAT THE HECK?!
harry and ginny were together?!
WHAT IS WRONG WITH JK ROWLING I ASK
WHAT IS WRONG WITH HER?!

did she run out of ideas or something?

can't think straight
need chocolate to calm my nerves




my falling ; 11:19 PM

I WANT MY HARRY POTTER AND THE HALF BLOOD PRINCE BOOK!
ARGH ARGH ARGH ARGH ARGH!

i am pathetic. i know that
there is no further need to remind me!
I WANT MY HARRY POTTER BOOK!

i just read a couple of spoilers
WHAT THE *!#@*?!
what is WRONG with jkrowling?!
WHAT IS WRONG WITH HER?!
OF ALL FREAKING PEOPLE TO KILL XXX IT HAD TO BE ******
HECK, OF ALL THE FREAKING MANY CHARACTERS IN HER BOOK, SHE HAD TO KILL XXX!
I MEAN, KILL RON FOR ALL I FREAKING CARE, KILL PERCY! KILL MOLLY! KILL SOME OTHER NINCOMPOOP ORDER PERSON!

ok. keep calm

WHY WHY WHY?!
I AM DISTRAUGT!
I AM WROUGHT WITH TRAUMA!
I AM TORN APART BY HER STUPIDITY!

AND TO BE KILLED BY *****
WHAT OTHER SORT OF INJUSTICE IS LEFT IN THE WORLD I ASK
HARRY IS NOTHING I TELL YOU NOTHING WITHOUT XXX
I TELL YOU, HARRY IS GNA HAVE HIS PUNY SIZED BRAIN PLUCKED OFF BY VOLDERMORT
I BET YOU ANYTHING HE'S GNA DIE IN THE SEVENTH BOOK

right, i gotta stop typing in caps

but seriously, WHY?! and mugglenet is providing no information whatsoever
none, nada! nil! ZILCH!

WHY WHY WHY?!
is there any justice left in the world?
argh.

i'm off to fend my frustration somewhere else

-huffs


my falling ; 10:25 PM

MY SWEETHEART!

i hereby testify that I LOVE MY SWEETHEART.
and my SWEETHEART is my ONLY ONE
that no one else in the world can replace my SWEETHEART
cause my SWEETHEART is my ONE AND ONLY
yes, my SWEETHEART rocks!

i testify in sound mind and soul.
i declare that all i have said (or typed) is certified true.

this i swear.
(:

LOVE LOVE LOVE!


my falling ; 4:57 PM

i'll be your security

i'm back from my nephew's one month celebration thing
whoa, ate and ate and ate.
think i can don't eat for the next two months already

ryan gave me my billabong bottle today
YAYYY!
thank you my rocking cousin!
LOVE!

hohoho
what shall i blog about
i'm pretty sure no one really wants to know about my weekend over at my brother's place
i did abit of shopping though at compass point on saturday
got so many baby clothes. WHY IS HE A BOY?!
i tell you, kiddy palace sells such pretty GIRL stuff!
makes me wish like hell i was still a baby
was going around mumbling "why is he a boy?!"

got stuff for myself at giordano
pretty!

wanted to go charles and keith to get a pair of slippers but my sis in law called us back cause she had forgotten to bring her house key
oh well

I WANT MY HARRY POTTER BOOK!
-stares at brother
ok, he gave me fifty bucks to go buy it myself
i'm super tempted to just go down to the nearest popular or something right now and get it
my mama's asleep you see
I WANT I WANT I WANT!
sabee messaged me yesterday telling me who died
ohmygoodness SO SAD!
why why why?! it had better be good why that character died or i will KILL jk rowling

ok. i'm tired.
but i want my harry potter book!
URGH
dilema dilema indeed
tmr ash is gna GLOAT nonstop about how she finished the book in 30 minutes (i'm kidding) and start telling me the story while i ROT away thinking WHY WHY WHY haven't i gotten the book yet
PIFF

ok. what the heck
not thinking straight
need sleep


my falling ; 4:41 PM

Thursday, July 14, 2005

shun the light

suddenly feel so free.
phone got message
too lazy to go get phone and read
after this then

anyhow
OHMYGOD MANDA!
I WENT TO SEE!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
-faints.
i can't take it. i keep returning to that page to see.
haha

ladidas.
i think i better go check my message now
and i don't feel like blogging

ok, so long farewell!


my falling ; 10:26 PM

Wednesday, July 13, 2005

it will be end of me

physical training was well, draining
the drop and net thing was RIDICULOUS
somehow just couldn't seem to move my legs faster and argh
i think that's what 4 hours of sleep does to you
but what the heck, i don't regret it
cause i was happy happy happy
even though i got up all goggy this morning
hee

ok. gotta make this a quick one
got a mole concept chem test tmr. that means alot of memorising today

ok. lessons were fine
everything was fine la. haha

chinese was fun! cause we had a china student in the class, sitting in front of ash ( i sit next to ash) and it was so funny
i asked her what was subscript called in chinese and goshh, so cute
and since they learn EVERYTHING in chinese except english, me, bel, rui and ash asked her to name the elements in chinese. whoa, super funny only la

after school, lunched then train. then stayed back in the canteen with manda, jean, chew, winnie and sheng talking about chalet. SO FUN!

alright, i needa go off to mug. i'm terrified i'll fall asleep half way. oh goshh
ok, go nessa go!


my falling ; 7:55 PM

corrine may ; save me

i drift, i burn, i fly
when you sing lullabies
i'm helpless, i'm yearning
i'm like the putty in your hands

i laugh, i dream, i cry
when you take me on a roller coaster ride
you see me through and through
you see just who i am
just take my hand and

save me from this place
heaven knows i'm falling
for you, my sweet embrace
heaven knows
heaven knows i've been waiting for you

i had a dream that i
was falling from the sky
at 90 miles an hour
i was bound to crash and die
but out of nowhere you came and rescued me
there must be some grace in the touch of your face
i'm so happy that i've found you
i'm no longer afraid

oh ' cause you
save me from this place
heaven knows i'm falling
for you my sweet embrace
heaven knows
heaven knows i've been waiting

before i met you
life was slow-mo
so slow-mo
i thought i had it figured out
but you came and turned my whole world upside down

save me from this place
heaven knows i'm falling
for you, my sweet embrace
heaven knows
heaven knows you've come to

save me from this place
heaven knows i'm falling
for you, my sweet embrace
heaven knows
heaven knows i've been waiting for you
waiting for you


my falling ; 7:49 PM

Tuesday, July 12, 2005

genetically superior

piano later
i am tired and i don't feel like going and i've work to do and a test to study for.
and i promised sabrina i'll go her house for her birthday after piano.
piangs, this is nehh.

ah well, it will all work out. yes it will.

tuesdays are way too long for my liking and mrs sng is either menopausing of pmsing
these few days i think she super bad mood or something.

three periods of maths is seriously no joke. somemore we're doing trigo.
i hate factorising the equations even though i'm kinda getting the hang of it.

chinese was once again pathetic. even the teacher said it. he's talking to the wall.
i spend the period listening to ash talk about hinduism. it's so interesting!
so fun!

physics in the lab. whoa, rocks man. the experiment so fun!
something about principal of moment. super fun!
i wna balance the ruler thing again!

lunch with pris at macs and home.

i think i'm gna go take a 15 min nap
(:



we are of cause, genetically superior to all other races


my falling ; 3:40 PM

Monday, July 11, 2005

basso ostinato

my mama's at my sis in law's place
i miss my mama!
even though she nags non-stop at me all the time
i get a sense of security when she's in the house
:(

lessons were ok.
maths wasn't a murder session even though it was three periods

english was the advertisment project thing
was HILARIOUS

chinese was, well, i don't know since i spent it reading "all american girl"
ash was reading "holy cow !" some book about indian superiority
she read me bits and it was so funny
got a relief teacher for chinese and he is, well, pathetic.
ok, i feel incredibly evil saying this, but he really is.
but i feel kinda sad for him cause it's quite obvious no one really listens to him
oh well.

some higher chinese girls had their chinese oral today and sabee was so freaked
haha. hope she did fine
but from what i heard from the mep special people, it was horrendously hard
ohgoshh, next year, it's my turn. i think i'll just stare at the examiner and just mumble cause i won't know what the heck am i supposed to talk about. :/

ah well
mep today was alright i guess
got back my practical and history of music results
I AM HAPPY!
not only cause i didn't fail, i did strangely well!
(((:
if this keeps up, i might actually get an A for mep which the last time i did was in sec one if i am not wrong. ((:

mr cher's harmony lesson was a total waste of my time.
i kept shutting off, but hey, since when did i listen to mr cher?

came back to study chem.
got a test on thursday, but i'm going sabrina's house tmr cause it's her birthday so cannot study tmr. there's training on wednesday. so yahh.

that reminds me! i have a social studies graded assignment.
ok, i shall go do now. and send audrey the sikh powerpoint.
ok, gotta do work.

I WILL NOT SLACK TODAY!


my falling ; 7:17 PM

Sunday, July 10, 2005

guestbook replies and shouts !

jia !
stoned sock #1!
goshh, you haven't been signing my guestbook much these few days.
:( why like that?
but what the heck, i still love you ever so much!
whatever happened to our meet on sundays to laugh our heads off plan?
you realise our plans never work? our studies plans don't work
our sunday plan didn't work
our 55min random walk plan didn't work either!
why is that so?
hmmm. love!
-hugs tight.

sistahh !
i updated my photo album already!
haha. go see see see!
i love my sistahh much !
-hugs tight !

brodahh !
ok, i'm giving you your reply now you furry raccoon! haha.
i love my silly little brodahh! don't forget our "the great siblings" family portrait!
love !

manda !
daughter! i signed your halo scan!
go read! i love you much dear!

evil !
yayy! you signed!
you were supposed to sign everyday!
why never sign?! huhhhh? too much!
hahaha. ok nevermind. SLEEP EARLIER!
i love you much. i do i do !

clar !
SWEET CLAR! i miss you much dear!
and i tagged your board!
go read! love !

bubbles !
rachh dear! cannot slack no more during training ok?
go rach go! i have faith in my grandaughter!
go and make your grandmama proud!
-beams. i love you dear !

NIC !
hurry come back! i miss you alot alot!
-cries
and i have stuff to tell you!
LOVE!

CRIS !
i haven't talked to you in AGES!
i miss you dear!
gotta find someday when me you ash and nic can all go out!
and FINALLY take some neos
haha. i love you much dear !

SWEETheart !
I LOVE MY SWEETHEART! YES I DO!
and i know you love me too!
(((:
i will love you until my dying day ((:


my falling ; 9:54 PM

and i will run to you

back from my sis in law's place
i'm absolutely beat
but i'm happy.
very very happy (:
cos i heard YOUR voice today
YAYYY!
on ahh, whole night. yes. and we will both die the next day
hahaha
but what the heck, i'll still be happy cause i got to hear your voice! (:

alright, woke up way too late for cath class, so i didn't go
went to my sis in law's place and had lunch there
was walking to the study when i made a casual passing remark to my brother about the floor being very sticky.
my brother was like "so sticky, you go mop la" and made me mop the floor. what the nehh nehh nehh?!
so mop la. but nevermind, was quite fun la. i guess? haha. i never get to mop my house floor. not that i am complaining, but i guess the fact that i hardly do it makes it fun. hee

did social studies. you know how incredibly boring social studies is? it is RIDICULOUSLY boring. ended up reading "the god of small things" it was alright la. not bad but abit hard to understand.

went over to the baby's room. my sis in law and i had a talk about stuff. was highly entertaining. was discussing the ideal guy. and she told me how she met my brother and stuff. was so funny! goshh, i have such a wonderful sister-in-law. ((:

my brother came back from his football match and made me vacum the floor. piangs, i maid ahh? too much

after that, my brother was playing with my nephew. he started singing weird songs and saying weird hilarious stuff. super super funny. was using his phone to record his doings. whoa. so funny

dinner.
then home. my stupid brother too lazy didn't want to send me home. what is this right? i poke him! -pokes

ahh well, SOMEBODY demanded a reply -stares at brodahh
ok la, reply reply. gna go sleep after doing guestbook replies and shout outs. i am tired!


my falling ; 9:36 PM

my falling ; 11:05 AM

Saturday, July 09, 2005

my SWEETheart !
ok, one nice and long sweet post to you
haha
did yours last so it'll be right at the top
anyhow, i love you alot alot alot alot
yes yes, i do.
and you know i do
ok, you better listen to me
ONE AM is NOT early, you hear me?
it is LATE. late late LATE
((:
i thank god everyday that i know you
for everyday seems so much better because of you (:
i hope it lasts for a LONG LONG time
fromt the bottom of my heart, I LOVE YOU MUCH!
-hugs tight tight tight

all the riches won't mean anything
all the riches baby; won't bring what your love can bring






for stupid people who think i'm gaoing
if you don't intend to use your brains, then go away la
so irritating. don't think so much, kills the grey matter in your brain


my falling ; 11:10 PM

JIA !
ohmygoodness
you are not feeling very high today are you?
don't be sad or upset or low anymore ok?
i love my STONED SOCK ALOT ALOT!
we should go get same socks!
(((((:
and stoned while wearing them!
i love you much much much!
-hugs SUPER tight
just chill about everything yahh?
everything's gna be alright
once again, I LOVE YOU DEAR!


my falling ; 11:08 PM

DANIEL LIM
BRODAHH!
my dear one-and-only brodahh
i rock you know i do
i mentioned you!
haha
i love my yoyo brother!

one whole entire post for you
goshh, i rock
this has to be enough for you to sign my guestbook right?
:D


my falling ; 11:06 PM

you know you're better than anyone else

i have a lot of dedication posts to do
after this

alright
training on friday
was hilarious
the physical.
rach didn't slack
YAYYY!

laughed and laughed while doing "ling huo xing"
so funny

went sis in law's place after training
my brother is hilarious

my nephew's officially JUSTIN LIM FANG YI
yayyy!

stupid thing is he KEEPS crying
i carry him try to sing him to sleep
he sleeps then suddenly wakes up and CRIES and wants milk
i don't have milk to give him
-coughs
(my mama says it'll be very wrong if i do. haha!)
and he keeps opening his mouth and "aiming" if you know what i mean
couldn't do anything cos my mama was busy, my sis in law was heating up the milk and my brother was SLEEPING
just tried to keep him away from my "chestal region"

my nephew has to stop thinking everyone is his feeding machine

gave him to my mama to feed and went to the study to do work
piangs, STUPID chinchilla make so much noise
HOW TO DO WORK?!
gave up after a while
chins are cute, but not when you're doing trigo and they're making a RIDICULOUS amount of noise

however cute justin is, he should REALLY stop crying
i couldn't sleep!
woke up all grumpy

brother sent me home and i changed and stuff
went to church
church was alright
not much to say
typical stuff
ok

i needa hurry do my dedication posts
i'm sucha busy girl
haha
(:


my falling ; 10:40 PM

Thursday, July 07, 2005

the world is so very wrong

maths test today was alright la
if it wasn't for that STUPID careless mistake i made
i mean, 12pm plus 66 MINUTES give you 1306 right?
what the heck did i put?
1303!
omg, what is wrong with me!?

ok, nevermind
failure is the mother of sucess
-nods

went for the PESA finals to support the sn finalist
i have been in st nicks since primary one
and i must say, i have NEVER met the finalist before in my ENTIRE life
ohmygoodness.
seriously, never before la

by the way, PESA stands for i have no idea what
but i think it's plain english speaking... something

i was veryveryveryvery reallyreallyreally extremelyextremelyextremely impressed
-stares at ash and pamelyn
the MGS girl was really really good
and her accent (u don't know if it's fake or not) is really good
and she's funny yet serious at the same time
and i just LOVE the way she conveys her message
it's just so BEAUTIFUL
-stares at ash

there was a particular speaker that got on me and ash's nerves
she's just irritating la
her voice, her gestures, her speech, her EVERYTHING is just wrong

for the impromptu speech, alot of people started off well and end off awkward
but heck, they're all good
and i'm hella impressed

went plaza sing with ash after the whole thing
we walked around for a while
saw plenty of earrings i like. i want i want!

we were trying to hail a cab (unsucessful)
until we saw a signboard that said "taxi stand"
was hilarious la

the cab uncle is a LOUSY driver
spend half the journey feeling sick
she dropped me off at some bus stop and i bused home

alright, plenty of work to do
go nessa go!



like a love heart carved on a tree


my falling ; 9:20 PM

Wednesday, July 06, 2005

mega watt smile

YES MANDA!
is he post one!
hahahaha
only those with my NICE AND WONDERFUL name at the bottom is i post one
hahaha
he's amusing aint he?
hahaha
and YES! we will take pyschology together!
GO MOTHER DAUGHTER TEAM!
(:

alright, am in the writing lab
just finished some REALLY uninspired essay about the most important lesson learned in life
i crapped practically the whole thing

ahh well, a young budding writer i am not

training later
ho humm
no mood. :/

lessons were fine
my chem teacher is complete rubbish
i known next to nothing about redox reactions

celine's reading this as i blog
hello celine!
-waves

ok she's amused
cos i'm so funny!
thank you thank you
ok, she says i'm not funny. i'm totally crazy
:
thanks ahh

ok, am going back to class now
so long farewell
-sings off

and for the sake of my BRODAHH once again
(i promised to mention him often on my blog)
i love my brodahh even though he has no self control
and doesn't stretch even though he has leg cramp
and is scared to sleep for fear of his leg cramping
haha
uh huhh, i love my brodahh cos he is my yoyo brodahh!
(:



i miss the warmth and calm your voice gives me
(:


my falling ; 1:58 PM

Tuesday, July 05, 2005

spend my time missing you

HAHAHAHAHA!
i am highly highly highly amused

ok, i am supposed to be drawing kinematics graphs now
yahh, but i got super irritated cos i couldn't draw the stupid curve properly
it looks like it got warts or something
:/

OHHH!
i can draw already!
but now i can get the stupid TANGENT
nehh la!

i give up
graphs shouldn't exist
they should just..
don't exist

it's back to drawing graphs
graphs are good.
graphs are nice
graphs are FANTASTIC
go graphs go!

i REALLY wna study psychology
so maybe when i use reverse psychology on myself, it'll actually work
:/

one more thing
for my BRODAHH
there! i mentioned you
haha
i love my BRODAHH ! (:


my falling ; 7:58 PM

i updated my photo album!
go see!
-points to the right
(:


my falling ; 3:56 PM

as long as you love me

back from school
piano later
i pray my teacher hasn't got the abrsm letter
cos that means i would have more time to practise my stuff

anyhow
i think i'm gna seriously start dreading tuesdays
they're too freaking long
i mean, THREE PERIODS OF MATHS?!
ok, so i have 2 periods of it first thenwith a "break" of 2 periods of english/elit (whichever mrs sng decides to do)
then the last period of maths
THEN i have chem
ohmygoodness
time just crawls

after recess i have chinese. although the teacher didn't come, but still, if she did, which she would be next tuesday, it just adds to my dread

chinese then physics
it won't be so bad if only mr gan can teach
he can't so it's just plain boring and nothing ever goes into my brain
thank goodness i sit next to sabee now
some form of entertainment!
((:

so sad her mom found out about her blog :/

lunched with manda, sheng, pris and bee.
sheng is so so so cute!
wahahaha
i cannot take it. my daughter is so cute!
-beams

walked down street 13 with pris and manda
hilarious people. goodness, can be comedians already

bused back with pris
and i can't rmbr what we talked about!
:/

ah well, piano piano
gotta go practise


my falling ; 3:35 PM

Monday, July 04, 2005

sing a song of six pence

ladidas
no school today
and i'm bored outta my wits
why am i so bored?
i dno why i am so bored
maybe it's because there's nothing to do that's why i'm so bored

actually i have something to do
a report on gathering for connexions
(i think it's for connexions, they can't possibly take it and keep it in some file and completely forget about it right?)
but i don't feel like doing
not now, later at night when i get into work mode

anyhow.
i shall TRY to be high for the sake of YOU
haha

alrights.
am done with this post


my falling ; 4:46 PM

Sunday, July 03, 2005

feel the temperature soar

back from milk run walk
my legs are killing me

was supposed to meet winnie at somerset mrt at 12
got super confused cos we ended up meeting pris bee and rahh too
but nevermind, we solved it in the end
hahaha
all met at orchard

went taka to eat lunch
met jen
ok, it wasn't really lunch but what the heck

took the shuttle bus down to zouk for the bazaar thingy
whoa piangs, SUPER hot only

hung around, eat stuff
nearly died of heat
and the stage thingy where bands were playing and stuff.
the speakers are CRAZY
so freaking loud.
think i went deaf in one ear or something

st nicks rocks la
all the other performances all like, not much clapping and stuff
but sn cheer and primary dance thingy group came out
WHOA, CHEER AND CHEER AND CHEER

it started raining though
so i got really wet

then the moment we've all been waiting for
the run thingy started
what the heck too many people
got human jam

i walked mainly with pris
chew rahh and bee in front
winnie manda jen and sheng behind

walked and talked the whole way
was generally alright la
though after awhile my legs didn't feel like mine anymore

sheng's papa was at aviva so he gave sheng first hand information on the man singles
TAUFIK WON!
-nods in approval
hee

after finishing the run/walk went to collect my bag
whoa, i am incredibly wonderful and great la
-stares at pris
got me and manda's bag in record time
haha

took the shuttle bus back down to town
then went eat pasta mania with rahh pris and sistahh!
couldnt finish my creamy chicken though

then, walked around, shopped and stuff
winnie went home

me pris and rahh went esprit
and we TRIED ON CLOTHES
so fun!
i want that nice nice skirt
and the nice nice tops
and that nice nice jeans
and that nice nice sweather
and that nice nice bag
and the nice nice belts

after that,
trained back home with rahh
amazed rahh by the birthdays i could rmbr
haha

cabbed back from yck mrt station

washed up etc
and whoa, too tired
just gna PLONK and sleep

TMR NO SCHOOL!
(:


my falling ; 9:28 PM

Saturday, July 02, 2005

good charlotte; we believe

there's a woman crying out tonight
her world has changed
she asks God why
her only son has died
and now her daughter cries
she can't sleep at night

downtown
another day for all the suits and ties
another war to fight
there's no regard for life
how do they sleep at night
how can we make things right?
just wanna make this right

we believe ( X6)
in this love

we are all the same
human in all our ways and all of pain
(so let it be)
there's a love that could fall down like rain
(let us see)
let forgiveness wash away the pain
(what we need)
and no one really knows what they are searching for
(we believe)
this world is crying for so much more

we believe (X6)
in this love

we believe (X5)
in this love

so this world
is too much
for you to take
just lay it down in front of me
i'll be everything you need
in every way

we believe (X6)
in this love

we believe (in this love)
(X 3)


my falling ; 11:49 PM

when's it my turn ?

i suddenly feel very depressed
haix, chain reaction

what a waste of emotion
-shrugs.
ahh well, it happens

church was fine
everything was fine LA
i guess

lost all my mood
:/

someone cheer me up please?
and the reason why i'm low isn't even a reason
it's just...
CHAIN REACTION

oh nehh it.
i'm going off

dan !
don't feel sad anymore please?
it's really a very small matter
and you'll get over it soon yahh?
keep your eyes PEELED for someone else and everything will be fine
i'm not used to you being so low
yes? yoyo brother? feel high again yahh?
i love my yoyo brother loads






I MISS YOU TOO!
so much more than you'll ever know


my falling ; 11:36 PM

guestbook replies

LUA !
you're in germany now aren't you
AHHH!
no more cath class with you until dno when
:/
that reminds me, this sunday cannot go! got milk run
DELENE AHHH!!!! how?
you?! my eyecandy?!
WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
ok la, because i know you yearn so much to be my eyecandy, so be it
hahaha
i love you much!

NIC !
BESTIEEEEEE
no la. i didn't mean it like that
cos you said you didn't really like your blog skin what, so i figured i'll do one for you
and i'm over that depressing stuff stage liao la
hahahaha
but depressing stuff are still nice! (:
you're in new zealand now
EVERYONE IS GOING OVERSEAS
damnit.
ok nevermind.
I LOVE YOU MUCH!

CRIS !
yesyes, such a good girl
healthy diets are NATURALLY expensive
see? organic vegetables are always more expensive
it's ok, got my BROTHER to yang wo
wahahahahaha
I LOVE YOU MUCH!

i dun !
stupid jonas, sign until like that
distort my guestbook
I POKE YOU!
and you still dno my weight!
YAYY!
anyhow, i love you LAR

pris !
told you the answer already
but in case you forgot
YES
i dno what's up with me you know
keep switching into foul mood mode cos of her?
ah well, saw your imagestation albums already
i look SO stupid in that "delighted" picture la
not my fault! it was jean, or xianbin, anything, who was making me laugh!
i look so hysterical like meeting celebrity or something
hahaha
i love you much !

jinan BABY !
what? you say goochigoochigoo to a baby what
and you my baby what!
yes, i know i rock
i tagged. thanks for signing yahh?
hahahaha
we'll fail mep together ok?
i love you much!


my falling ; 10:57 AM

the wonderful stroy of henry sugar

am at my sis in law's place now
her computer is in the chinchilla's room
and chinchillas need a nice and low temperature to thrive
so i'm half frozen to death

anyhow, my nephew kept crying yesterday
and from my previous post i'm sure you know i HATE crying babies
so IRRITATING

but i guess he's super cute la
was singing him to sleep yesterday
he was staring at me and suddenly just POOF close eyes
SO CUTEEEEEEEEEE

i have an irritating but cute nephew

was reading the wonderful story of henry sugar and six more by roald dalhl again yesterday
i'm still amazed by how roald dalhl brings forth his story
and his ideas are seriously AMAZING
i love roald dalhl. and i LOVE his charlie and the chocolate factory

OHYES!
it's coming out as a movie aint it
and johnny depp is willy wonka
saw the poster at 7-eleven
whoa, he fits the role PERFECTLY
he's such an amazingly actor and his pirate role in pirates of the carribean was WHOA
ok, i can go on forever about johnny depp.
hee

YES!
you blogged!
(((((((((((:

ladidas. my stupid brother's still sleeping
ok, maybe not so stupid
he was doing "night duty" yesterday
cos you gotta feed the baby every two hours
yahhh
we wanted to go watch war of the worlds together and my sis in law was like "HELLO?! YOU DOING NIGHT DUTY HOR!"
so never go in the end
oh well, nevermind
I WNA WATCH!

dakota fanning is amazing

JIA!
watch with me?
that's if we can find a empty spot in both our RIDICULOUS schedules and actually meet
you la, go nj for what?
st nicks not good enough is it
haiyo
oh well, love loads!


my falling ; 10:44 AM

Friday, July 01, 2005

let in the light of morning

i kinda JUST woke up
slept at 2 plus yesterday
cos i was on the phone
ohmygoodness, seriously missed your voice
your nice soothing voice

anyhow, NO SCHOOL TODAY!
ok, rather obvious

havta go my sis in law's place later
staying over.
my mama says the baby keeps on crying
oh nehh la, that means i have to tolerate his crying
and i HATE crying babies
that also means i won't be able to play halo2 no more
:/

ah well, nevermind la

goshh, i'm feeling sleepy again.
WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?!

ahh well as jonas puts it
i'm a skinny PIG
yahh, SKINNY GOAT JONAS!
sign my guestbook sign until like that
ahahaha



for i'm weak and starving for mercy


my falling ; 12:02 PM